It’s hard to believe it’s only a week since I was last with you because so much has happened since then… and I would give anything to be able to turn back time… but I’m really sorry to be writing to tell you that my mum died last Monday morning.
Those of you who follow this blog will know that she was taken into hospital at the end of June, as she seemed to have lost the use of her legs and was immobile. We believed it to be temporary as that’s what we were advised, and so she was taken to a nursing home that specialized in rehabilitation. Try as they might, mum just couldn’t walk and she lost her appetite too. In September we managed with the help of social services to get her home adapted and arrange for carers to come in and she came home for two short days, but was completely unable to cope and was rushed to hospital.
The QA in Portsmouth were marvellous, but her condition deteriorated even further and so they organised her move to a beautiful nursing home in Liss, Hampshire. That was on Monday, October 7th, and we were advised that the care she would receive there would be end of life care. My sister Jenny and I spent as much time as possible with her, as did her grandchildren, which was lovely. Although she couldn’t say much, she still recognised us, so we could share memories or look at photos. The last conversation we all had was when mum told us of a ‘lovely place’ she was going to, and that she wanted us to come with her. We asked her if it was the seaside, and she nodded, and smiled when we suggested what we would bring with us for a picnic. We told her we loved her and she said the same…
The last time I visited she was in a deep sleep and I couldn’t wake her. I sat and held her hand, but for once I was lost for words… I’d wanted to ask her when I should prune my roses; I had wanted to tell her that Honey could almost swim without her armbands and what a lovely time we’d had in Wales… But I did tell her I loved her, as did my sister when she saw her, and when we were all together by her side on Monday morning we didn’t need to say it, because we all knew.
Thank you so much for the incredibly kind words of support you’ve written and thanks too for your love and kindness – not just to me, but for mum and the whole family.
With my love,