A Parting, A Gathering, A Blessing

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I haven’t been on social media much recently. I decided to have a little bit of a break from it all as the real world took precedence for a bit. I went home to Ireland to be with my family.

The trip was not a planned one, it happened suddenly and unexpectedly because, unfortunately, my eldest brother died in exactly that manner, without warning and without a chance to say the things that I would dearly loved to have said but will now never have the opportunity.

To say I am devastated and eaten up with grief and sadness every day doesn’t really come close to explaining how I feel about it. I have been going on air throughout and popping backwards and forwards between Ireland and work, putting on a brave face and trying to get on with things, but I don’t mind admitting it has been hard.

I don’t mean to be maudlin or glum or bring anyone down with this, I just wanted to let you know why I haven’t really been around on social media and if you see me on air and I may appear to be anything other than, what I like to think is, my usual cheery self, then that is the reason.

My brother, Feargal, was just 53 years old, 5 years older than me. He was the eldest of the four of us, now we are three. It was a massive heart attack, which given my own heart issues has given me pause. It has left me shaken and uncertain of life. Still, I have reason to be positive and grateful. I am still here and, shortly after my brother’s death, I had the one year anniversary of my heart bypass surgery so there is still a lot of life to be lived, all being well.

My ultimate concern during this time has been for my mother. She turned 81 the day after the funeral and I’ve told her she isn’t allowed to go anywhere yet, I fear that more than anything at the moment as I’m not sure I’d have the strength to bear it.

Unsure of what else to do to help, I chose to hire a car and take mum and other family members out every day to spend time together, to be with each other, to mind each other.

I grew up in a small border town in Northern Ireland about 6 miles from the sea and as a child we would sometimes go on day trips to many of the seaside towns near us. That was always such a treat for all of us as children. So, for lack of knowing what else to do, and almost by instinct, that’s where we went.

I suddenly saw these places in a whole new way. They were stunningly beautiful, in a way that I had never noticed before. The scenery was breathtaking and I kept saying over and over as we drove around each bend in the road ‘It is so beautiful here’. I think the family were ready to scream if I said it one more time. I don’t know if it was the fact that my brother had died and that I was questioning my own longevity or if it was that the scenery was always that beautiful and I had just never noticed but suddenly I saw it with different eyes, I wanted to see all of it and relish in it. My newfound appreciation of my homeland and particularly the area I grew up in is something else to be thankful for. Life, for the moment at least, has become a search for things to be grateful for.

I’m back in London again now and still working but the pain continues unabated, as I am sure it will for some time. It arrives like an unexpected guest, at the most inconvenient of times, and, just like an uninvited guest, I never know how long it will stay. I only hope that friends, family and colleagues can please bear with me.

I’d like to take this opportunity and this platform to ask all of you if you have been putting off a health check or if you know someone who should have one, to please see your doctor or health practitioner and have your heart, and everything else checked, it is time well spent. The British Heart Foundation can provide all kinds of help and support for those who have issues or concerns about their heart heath.

Also, if you are dealing with grief, or again know someone who is, there are lots of great charities and organisations out there that can help. One of our on-air guests, Linda Magistris works with The Good Grief Trust who can help people find the support they may need at a very difficult time.

Before I go, I wanted to mention that we have a tradition in Ireland, after someone dies of printing a Memory Card. I’m not sure if that is something that you do here? You put a picture of the person in there with some details of their life and a prayer. We also added An Irish Blessing on my brother Feargal’s that I’d like to share. Many of you may already know it but I think it is worth sharing with you and then you in turn can share it with someone you may not be seeing for a while:

May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
May the rains fall soft upon your fields, and, until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of his hand.

Until the next time we meet, take care of yourselves and remember to tell the ones you love that they are loved, you never know when you’ll get the chance again.

Miceal xxx

127 Comments

  1. Angela August 20, 2019 at 5:21 pm -  Reply

    Reaching out to you with heartfelt sympathy. May each day bring you light Miceal.

    • Heather August 24, 2019 at 10:05 am -  Reply

      Miceal,
      Deepest sympathy at the loss of your brother.

    • Lesley August 29, 2019 at 10:39 pm -  Reply

      Heartfelt thoughts are with you and your family Miceal. Life is changed for always. Feargal would want you all to hold on to the lovely memories that you have of each other. Be gentle with yourself and get through one hour at a time. Feargal would want you all to think of him often for all the good times you shared together. I hope these messages from kind and compassionate people bring you comfort by knowing you are not alone in your grief. You will get strength to carry on. Feargal knew you loved him very much so leave your guilt behind. May your lovely brother rest in peace.

  2. Michelle Baker August 20, 2019 at 5:22 pm -  Reply

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending much love xxx

  3. SheMag August 20, 2019 at 5:44 pm -  Reply

    For once, I am without words. Miceal, I am so sorry for your loss. Your love for your brother shines through your words. Take comfort from that love, as I am sure he would wish you to.

  4. Craig Rowe August 20, 2019 at 5:45 pm -  Reply

    Thank you for sharing this Miceal. Much love, your colleague and friend, Craig xxx

    • Denise wilkinson August 25, 2019 at 1:12 pm -  Reply

      I am so dreadfully sad to hear about your brother. All I can say is that the wonderful memories you have of him will carry you through. NI is the most beautiful place in the world, I too was born and brought up there. Take care dear Miceal. Love and peace to you and yours. X

  5. Dee Sedgwick August 20, 2019 at 6:00 pm -  Reply

    Dearest Miceal, You are the most lovely, kind and gentle person – to be sure ! (see what I did! Supposed to be a little bit Irish) It goes without saying how dreadfully sorry I am to hear your very sad news about your beloved brother. I lost my beloved husband, Alan, four years ago and sometimes I miss him more now than I did when he first died.
    We had been married for 42 years and he was the other half of me. I loved him beyond words. I know all your lovely QVC colleagues and friends and family will care for you and
    be kind to you at this time. Try not to dwell too much on things which were, perhaps, left unsaid to Feargal. When you are unequivocally loved by someone, that person knows it.
    Words are not always necessary. Take care lovely Miceal. Dee Sedgwick xx

  6. Rebecca Walker August 20, 2019 at 6:02 pm -  Reply

    I am sorry to hear of your loss Micheal and suddenly is something we are not prepared for. My friend recently lost her 23 year old son and she is finding it very hard. Your thoughts were very good to read. I keep telling her to keep the family has close has they can and draw strength from it. Your idea of taking your family all out, every day was a great idea and I am sure you all got comfort from it.
    Take care of yourself and I hope your health goes from strength to strength.
    XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

  7. Gillian Wood August 20, 2019 at 6:05 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal
    My thoughts are with you and your family. I lost my brother in 2005 and still.Miss him and think of him often.
    All I can say is you feel you will never get over losing him but you will in time adjust to it. It’s so very hard. Keep smiling if you can.
    Lots of love to you and your family.
    Gill , Essex

  8. Elaine August 20, 2019 at 6:08 pm -  Reply

    Sorry to hear your news. I can (almost) understand your loss. I have lost 2 family members in the last couple of months, 1 in june, the other in July. It’s not easy but you just have to be thankful for small mercies. Keep your chin up.

  9. Sahrah August 20, 2019 at 6:12 pm -  Reply

    I am so sorry that you have had such a deeply sad loss. You always come across as such a cheerful and genuine person and I am sure you are a great comfort to your family.
    Revisiting those childhood places that hold happy memories sounds the perfect thing to do. Appreciating the little things in the life, the beauty of nature and friends and family is the best way to live. I hope that you are able to remember those happy times with your brother amidst your grief.

  10. Teresa Karasavvas August 20, 2019 at 6:25 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. The shock of it as I know is extremely hard to bear.

    I lost my lovely, lovely Dad in 2009 and I saw him on the Saturday and on the Tuesday he was gone.

    He passed as he wanted to in his sleep and I was so grateful he got to go the way he wished but it goes without saying that the shock was immense.

    My late Dad was Irish and I know about the memorial cards. My dad loved his garden and so I had a photograph of his garden put on the front of the memory card and the garden was as he left it so it was extra special.

    As we all know the saying “time is a healer” and from my own experience it is certainly true but we never get over the loss of a loved one we just learn to live with it.

    My sincere condolences to you and your family on the loss of Feargal – RIP.

    Take care of yourself.

    Teresa

  11. Cherry August 20, 2019 at 6:31 pm -  Reply

    Oh Miceal, your blog has reduced me to tears. The pain of losing loved ones seems unbearable but, with the love and support of your family and friends, you will get through it. Thinking of you and sending love. God Bless x

  12. Tracey August 20, 2019 at 6:39 pm -  Reply

    MICEAL, I lost my lovely mum just over five months ago so have an idea of how you are feeling . It’s so hard but do be kind to yourself and as someone said to me keep going until you can live again I do agree we should try to savour every day . I have enjoyed some of your recent appearances as I always do and would never have known the emotional turmoil you will be going through. You are a true professional . Good to read your always eloquent blog take care xx

  13. Julie August 20, 2019 at 6:46 pm -  Reply

    Am crying whilst reading this. So sorry about your brother. My mum died 2 years ago & we had the blessing at her funeral. We also had part of it printed in her Remembrance Book. Don’t be afraid to cry but also smile at happy memories of your brother. Take care. x

  14. Deborah Robinson August 20, 2019 at 6:51 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal,having just been reading your blog I wish I could hug you,any word s just don’t seem enough,it’s unbelievably sad,we are all guilty of not realizing what we have until it’s gone…thinking of you…Debbie x

  15. Barbara Haggan August 20, 2019 at 7:09 pm -  Reply

    God Bless Miceal. The pain of your loss will get easier to bear each day. Eventually, instead of the little things that remind you of him causing you pain as you think of the loss, they will start to remind of the joy of his life and those sweet memories of him will make you smile again. God bless you all, take care of each other, but don’t be afraid to enjoy life – you brother would want that for you.

  16. Claire August 20, 2019 at 7:37 pm -  Reply

    I am so sorry for your loss Miceal, and am truly thinking of you. For me, growing up, I always felt that my family would be together forever, then within the last five years we’ve lost both parents. When these things happen to us, it confirms that non of us will live forever and that life is so precious. You are so right in saying that we need to tell our loved ones how much they are loved and what they mean to us, as we have no way of knowing when they will be taken from us.
    Take time for yourself and also to be with your family. You will always feel there is someone missing, but it does heal a little bit, with time. Sending you lots of love.
    Claire xx

  17. Sue Harris August 20, 2019 at 8:07 pm -  Reply

    I have just read this… And I am in bits! So very sorry for your loss and what you have written is so well expressed. Take good care of yourself and live life to the full.xxxxx

  18. Claire Gilliam August 20, 2019 at 8:10 pm -  Reply

    So very sorry to hear of your loss, you are so strong and brave to continue working at this time. We always have regrets when we lose someone special but we can only do our best- I’m sure your brother knew how much you love him even though you feel you didn’t say everything you’d have liked to. Thank you for reminding us to appreciate the times we have with our dear ones. Sending you love and best wishes xx

  19. Karen August 20, 2019 at 8:11 pm -  Reply

    My deepest condolences Miceal….big hugs to you at this very sad time xx

  20. Michelle August 20, 2019 at 8:15 pm -  Reply

    Dear Micheal,
    My heart goes out to you and your family during your difficult time. May you stay strong.

  21. Lisa August 20, 2019 at 8:34 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear your sad news about your brother and I know exactly how you feel as I lost my mom within 6 weeks of her being taken I’ll with a bleed on the brain recently and words can’t describe the sadness grief and devastation I also feel. Thank you for sharing the Irish blessing as its given me great comfort..Take care of yourself and embrace every moment of your life as it puts your life into perspective with a sudden death of a loved one..Lisa xxx

  22. Mrs Maria Stanley Harlow August 20, 2019 at 8:36 pm -  Reply

    Bless you……I am so sorry to hear your very sad news! My Dad was taken suddenly due to heart issues so I understand your grief and not having that time to say the things you always think there’s another day to say. I’m sure you have good friends and family around to get you through the times ahead. Take Care & keep well! Love Maria X

  23. Bev Bonner August 20, 2019 at 8:42 pm -  Reply

    so sorry to hear your very sad news Miceal , I know you do not know me I and just one your qvc customers , Iove watching you , you come across as such a lovely person , one day at a time Miceal god bless x

  24. Joanna Downey August 20, 2019 at 9:10 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, Your words are so moving & all I can write is that I am sorry for your loss. Be kind to yourself. Joanna

  25. C frost August 20, 2019 at 9:29 pm -  Reply

    So sorry to hear of your sad loss my heart goes out to you. I will pray for you and your family. God bless you all and give you strength to cope. Thinking ofyou

  26. Christine Jones August 20, 2019 at 9:38 pm -  Reply

    Hi Micheal X first of all, my heartfelt condolences to you and your family especially your lovely mum… X just know that others share in your sadness losing a precious member of the family… My own dad died when he was 51 and my mum and me were in such shock.. at 16 years old, he was my rock… We stuck close to each other as a family.. our family faith in God kept us focussed and we found peace. Your blessing is so wonderful and spending time in God s wonderful creation is surely going to help you heal darling Micheal..
    Your an inspiration to me as I had a heart attack on Christmas morning last year.. brought on by a virus pneumonia it hit the left side of my heart and left a huge scar. So now the right hand side is working extra hard.. I don’t remember much of it thankfully but the DRS and nurses dedication and loved ones prayers brought me through.. we had Christmas at the end of January when I finally came home. All courtesy of QVC purchases!!!!! Parcelled ready we d put them round the fireplace and there they sat til I came home!!!
    I did think of you often when I had tough moments and my church prayed and sent me psalms 121 and 91 to focus on which helped me so much…. Thank you Michael for sharing… As my lovely mum used to say, love one another as I have loved you and look after one another…
    Sending the biggest hug and love to you and your lovely mum.. praying for our broken hearts to mend.. They will in time as we remember all our blessings… Together we will….X take your time
    Lots of love. God bless always

    May the Lord bless you and keep you, make His face to shine upon you and give you peace.. He understands..X

    Christine xxxxx

  27. Margaret Gaughan August 20, 2019 at 9:42 pm -  Reply

    Sorry to hear of your brother’s passing Micheal, I hope he rests in peace.

  28. Nadia Murphy August 20, 2019 at 9:52 pm -  Reply

    So very, very sorry for your loss, Miceal. A sudden death of a loved one is so much harder for those left to grieve. Sending you a virtual hug. Look after yourself and your loved ones.

  29. Karen August 20, 2019 at 9:54 pm -  Reply

    Sorry for your loss but you have a beautiful way with words and your blog made very interesting reading and I must say I too have lost a very dear daughter altho 2 and a half years ago the words you wrote hit home and we must treasure every day we are on this earth. Thank you for sharing your sadness. Much love Karen x

  30. Helen Dovidio August 20, 2019 at 9:59 pm -  Reply

    Miceal, i’m so very sorry to learn of your brother’s death and send you and your family my love and prayers.You are stronger than you think and have a close loving family so together you will get through this. Ever moment is precious and should be treasured.Give your Mum an extra hug and be glad of the time you have with those you love.Don’t let this break you.Remember you are cared for and supported by more people than you know.x

  31. val rollings August 20, 2019 at 10:11 pm -  Reply

    love to you and your mum and family at this time. take care of your self. all my love val

  32. Lelly August 20, 2019 at 10:15 pm -  Reply

    God bless you x

  33. JC August 20, 2019 at 10:17 pm -  Reply

    My condolences to you and your family Miceal. As someone who is still coming to terms with the unexpected death of my father several years ago, your blog has brought a tear to my eye. I feel every word you have written. May you keep strong and remember your brother will always be in your heart. Grief is sneaky. It still takes me by surprise. Everything it is still very raw for you, but it does get easier. You just learn to accommodate it in your life. The sun will break through again. Take care.

  34. Lisa August 20, 2019 at 11:04 pm -  Reply

    Oh Miceal I am so sorry for your loss. I have a good idea of how you must be feeling as I lost my father in the same way last year.
    I think when you lose someone suddenly, it puts a whole new perspective on life. I too look at things a lot closer than before and see the beauty in simple things.
    Look after yourself as your brother would want you to.
    The enormity of it does get better in time. I found that 9 months down the line I started to feel a bit more normal, and that the fog had lifted. Everyone is different, you do whatever feels right for you.
    You will be your cheery self again one day, until then, just one minute at a time.
    Love and light, Lisa xx

  35. Sarah August 20, 2019 at 11:25 pm -  Reply

    Oh Miceal – your blogs are always so eloquent and I am shedding a little tear reading this one – thoughts are with you and your family, and work/audience will nowunderstand, I think it’s brave of you to put it out there.
    You are quite right to advise making memories with those you cherish – I sometimes think it’s a phrase used rather flippantly by some, but this post really brings home the meaning of it.
    I would hope your support network will be there for and please remember you ARE allowed to be angry, upset and every emotion in between – if you want to talk about your brother then do, if you want mindless escapism in a film/tv programme and talk about that then do that. Whilst you are understandably trying to be a rock for your family, please don’t forget about yourself – You’ve quite rightly mentioned bereavement services, but the Samaritans also have an email contact, I feel its sometimes easier to vent and get everything written down and then speak to someone and talk through the ramblings especially if you just clam up when on the phone!
    Take care xxx

  36. Linda Rogers August 20, 2019 at 11:57 pm -  Reply

    So sorry for your loss.

  37. Ghazala ahmed August 21, 2019 at 12:00 am -  Reply

    Dear miceal
    I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. I lost a family member at age of 30 from A sudden heart attack 9 months ago. It is very hard to come to terms with but you will find some strength from somewhere I hope.
    Sending u lots of love and hugs x

  38. Angela watson August 21, 2019 at 12:03 am -  Reply

    Condolences and prayers to you and your family

  39. Js August 21, 2019 at 6:41 am -  Reply

    Miceal I am so sorry to hear your news. ( i have your post go directly to my email )I cannot and do not want to imagine the grieve you are going through. Life is so hard at times. Even through your grieve you are thinking of others. What more can be said.

  40. Karen B August 21, 2019 at 7:17 am -  Reply

    Oh Miceal my heart goes out to you. Sudden, unexpected death is so very painful and at such a young age these days. Sending love to you and your family and especially your dear mother. Big hug and keep your chin up xx

  41. jo August 21, 2019 at 7:33 am -  Reply

    Hi Miceal i come from Ireland Navan co Meath i lost my Mother it is so heard to deal with but time dose help you just cry when you need to and be string when you can . god bless you. Jo west yorkshire xx

  42. Suzi from Ayr Scotland August 21, 2019 at 8:34 am -  Reply

    God bless you and your family

    • Kim Egan August 24, 2019 at 3:07 pm -  Reply

      Micheal, God bless you and your family. I have that blessing on a bangle as it was chosen to be read at my sister-in-law’s funeral two years ago and brings me great comfort. Another verse I received in a card may also help you through. It reads: “Say not in grief he is no more, but in thankfulness he was”. Love, thoughts and prayers xx

  43. Helen W August 21, 2019 at 8:49 am -  Reply

    Miceal. I can’t begin to tell you how sorry I am to hear of your loss. Although your brother was taken so suddenly and you were denied the opportunity to say all those unsaid thing,, I’m sure he still knew how loved he was. Keep strong when you can, but let go when you can’t.

  44. Anita Allen August 21, 2019 at 9:26 am -  Reply

    Heartbreaking. Sending love to you Miceal and wishing you peace.

    Anita .

  45. Susan August 21, 2019 at 9:55 am -  Reply

    Hi Miceal,
    I’m so so sorry to read your tragic news about your brother. I don’t know what to say. You’ve had such awful times the last couple of years and you absolutely need a break, I just wish you could get it. I know how dark things can feel which is made worse when you’re on your own but I think you’re coping the only way you can. Just get up every morning and do what you can. Take time out if you need to too. Take care xx

  46. Caroline Hawkins August 21, 2019 at 10:24 am -  Reply

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I understand so well the need to support each other through this. God bless you and your family.

  47. Sue Langley August 21, 2019 at 10:38 am -  Reply

    So sorry to hear of your Brothers passing. Time is a healer, loved ones pass on but are never forgotten. You are in my thoughts. XX

  48. Michelle Leahy August 21, 2019 at 10:47 am -  Reply

    Micheal, I’m truly sorry for the loss of your big brother. May the road rise up to meet him . Ar dheis De go raibh a anam x

  49. Christine August 21, 2019 at 10:51 am -  Reply

    Miceal, you have shared so much of yourself here, your thoughts feelings and the care and concern you have for your mother and brothers. Thank you for those lovely words, above all take good care of yourself, be kind to yourself, draw strength from your dearest friends and family. I am just a customer with a similar experience of losing my brother far too soon but I feel very moved by your loss and sadness. x

  50. Jill August 21, 2019 at 11:15 am -  Reply

    I’m so sorry to hear your sad news, but what a beautiful poem as a tribute to Feargal. I’m delighted to hear that your own health is improving so just take your time to grieve and you’ll get through although like the rest of us dealing with the loss of a loved one you’ll never get over it you’ll just learn to live with it.
    Thinking of you

  51. Brigit August 21, 2019 at 11:39 am -  Reply

    Hi Micheal. I’ve been in tears reading your blog. I am so sorry to hear about your dear older brother. What a terrible shock for you and your family. Thank you for sharing the Irish Blessing. It is beautiful. Coincidentally I am taking my mother who is 85 back to her childhood holiday spot near Cork, Ireland in Sept. She hasn’t been back for many, many years. My son is also coming. He is 26 and has never been to Ireland! My mum has longed to go back to remember happy times with her family too. Stay strong and may God Bless you and keep you close at this difficult time. Love from Brigit x

  52. Lucy August 21, 2019 at 11:56 am -  Reply

    Dear Miceal
    I have watched qvc for many years now,and a lot of the presenters feel and become like friends which is strange of course,as you don’t know me!
    When you lose some one you love there are no words that fit to express what your feeling or going through and you can feel so alone even with the people you know and love.
    I realise everyone experiences loss,but when it’s personal to you it is so hard to even make sense off,I often found myself asking what life is all about.
    You are incredibly honest and it’s a quality that allows people to feel close to you,not everyone has that.
    Much love to you and your family.
    Lucy X

  53. Kelly August 21, 2019 at 1:01 pm -  Reply

    Micael, Im so sorry to hear your news, My thoughts are with you and your family. I know exactly what you and your family are going through. I lost my younger sister two years ago at the age of 40 to a rare heart virus, myocarditis, Some days are good and the others are bad. Just make sure you look after yourself and the people that the most important to you.

  54. Linda August 21, 2019 at 1:36 pm -  Reply

    Aw bless you I hope things will get better for you and just remember the good times you had with your brother see you sometime on qvc

  55. Burnette Boatswain August 21, 2019 at 1:44 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Life is cruel sometimes and we never know what tomorrow brings so it is worth it every day to be kind and loving to each other. I am praying for you and your family. God bless you all.Can I leave this for you it is part of a hymn. “For the souls that overcome waits the beauteous heav’nly home,where the blessed evermore tread on high the starry floor.”
    Take care.

  56. Debbie August 21, 2019 at 1:47 pm -  Reply

    Miceal I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your brother my heart goes out to you and all your family at this very painful and difficult time. Take each day at a time your brother will be with you always .When I lost my Dad it’s 7 years ago next week I had memories come back to me that I hadn’t thought about and I thought where did that come from. Treasure your memories and I so agree with you about telling your loved ones how much you love them. We all seem to be running around at 100mph we need to slow down and have time and have that special precious family and friend time. God Bless you your brother would be so proud of you looking after your family you find so much strength together xx

  57. Susan Smurthwaite August 21, 2019 at 2:04 pm -  Reply

    Hello Miceal….so very sorry to hear your sad news….my thoughts and prayers are with
    you and your family during this time. How true your words are Miceal, sometimes we never say what we are feeling to our loved ones and before you know …. its too late, So thank you for your kind and beautiful words and I shed a few tears when reading your message. Take care of yourself, take time to enjoy the things around you and that beautiful country of yours and most important take time with your family….they are precious.

  58. samantha antoine August 21, 2019 at 2:47 pm -  Reply

    wow! you have been through a lot, was in tears reading this, so sorry for your loss. I remember your blog last year about your heart problem, take care. life is short

  59. Francesca Walsh August 21, 2019 at 3:21 pm -  Reply

    Dear Mícheál, i was so sorry to read your piece. I can only imagine your pain. I just have a twin and losing her would be devastating. I wish you so much ease and relief from your pain. Keep looking after you. Obviously I don’t know you but your personality comes through in your writing, and it is a sensitive and humane thing. Most sincerely, Francesca, Co Wicklow xxx

  60. Yvonne mary August 21, 2019 at 4:34 pm -  Reply

    My heart goes out to you and your family. With love , Yvonne x.

  61. Sue August 21, 2019 at 5:31 pm -  Reply

    Miceal, sending you and your family love and compassion during this incredibly sad time x

  62. Jillian Mason August 21, 2019 at 6:21 pm -  Reply

    Oh me babby ive got tears rolling down me face in shear sadness for you and yours,indeed im grieving meself for a loverly young chap(my neighbour actually) who very sadly had his life snatched from him at easter(murdered at 18).Ive watched him grow up from a babby into a charming polite young man with everythink ahead of him…sorry to be such a misery, now im sure i speak for all of us qvc customers that we are thinking of you and your family at this everso sad time,god bless you bab… jillian mason x

  63. Mary August 21, 2019 at 6:56 pm -  Reply

    Deepest Sympathy to you & your family for your loss.
    I just commented to my daughter when you we saw you on air at the weekend, that you did not look your usual self.
    Please take care.

  64. Janet Cullen August 21, 2019 at 7:18 pm -  Reply

    My dad died of a heart attack when he was 61 and the pain you feel will be unbearable for a long time but it will get easier one day just don’t put pressure on yourself not to grieve or cry when you feel like it.at least you had bypass so you will be ok xxx

  65. Gaynor Evans August 21, 2019 at 9:12 pm -  Reply

    I am so sorry for your loss Micael. My brother died whilst on holiday 2 weeks after he retired at 61. I feel your pain. Xx

  66. Susan Jennings August 21, 2019 at 9:19 pm -  Reply

    I am so sorry for your loss Micheal. Your blog is so sincere and inspiring along with the beautiful blessing . God Bless you and your Family and May your Brother rest in peace xx

  67. Jane greene August 21, 2019 at 9:31 pm -  Reply

    How brave to share your thoughts with everyone. What a lovely message at the end xxxx

  68. Jackie August 21, 2019 at 9:41 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, what a traumatic year you and your family have had. I am so sorry to hear about your beloved brother. It may seem trite to say, but just do whatever you need to do to get through it all. Embrace your memories and make new ones with your lovely family. The gut wrenching pain will fade with time but the love you share with your family will never fade.

    Your heart op has given you extra time to live, love and laugh so reach out to those you hold dear, they will be there for you whenever you need them,for however long you need them.

    Thank you for sharing with us your QVC extended family and for encouraging people to get checked out. Take care. Xxx

  69. DebbieH August 21, 2019 at 10:13 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal,
    I wish you and your family all the strength and love to get you through this very difficult time after the sad, sudden passing of your brother. Your blog was very honest and moving though you need to know that by being so honest it will help others in the same unfortunate situation.
    Nothing can prepare you for the sudden loss of a loved family member or friend. My Dad unfortunately passed away last year after battling prostate cancer and although my Mum, Sister and I were there for him in his final hours I still relive those final moments.
    However, like yourself, I try to remember the good times and make sure I take time to see Mum more regularly and help her more as it is much harder for her.
    Don’t forget to take some time for yourself and talk to friends and family to help you heal.
    Best wishes x

  70. June kane August 21, 2019 at 10:30 pm -  Reply

    So sorry to read about the loss of your brother my thoughts are with you .

  71. Susan August 21, 2019 at 10:31 pm -  Reply

    Very sorry to hear about your brother passing away so suddenly, thinking of you x

  72. Martina August 21, 2019 at 10:44 pm -  Reply

    I’m so sorry for your loss.

  73. Sarah August 21, 2019 at 11:17 pm -  Reply

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing someone close i found makes you look at the world in a whole new way and you do suddenly see the beauty all around. It makes you appreciate the little things, from the wind on your face, to the leaves changing with the season. You always feel the loss of someone special but each new day arrives and we have to be grateful we are still here to enjoy it, as much for them as for ourselves. Take care x

  74. SoggySox August 22, 2019 at 12:40 am -  Reply

    So sorry to hear your terrible news, Micael. My thoughts are with you and your family at this time. X xxx

  75. Marie August 22, 2019 at 8:12 am -  Reply

    Dear Miceal my heart goes out to you all I have tears rolling down my cheeks after your beautiful blog. May god give you strenth to see the sun again. Marie xxxx

  76. Judy Lever August 22, 2019 at 9:18 am -  Reply

    Miceal, I am so sorry for your loss- devastating. You have written so beautifully about it and I applaud your courage in carrying on with your QVC shows – must have been a huge strain. I know it will take time but the pain will heal and you will have the wonderful memories of your brother forever. With warmest wishes Judy (Collier Campbell)

  77. Antoinette Browne August 22, 2019 at 9:38 am -  Reply

    Dear lovely Miceal, such a lovely and moving blog. Thank you for sharing it with us. It’s so good to talk about things. My heart goes out to all your family. May you and your lovely family. Continue to love and cherish each other. God bless you. All my love and best wishes. Antoinette x

  78. jacci August 22, 2019 at 9:59 am -  Reply

    Oh Miceal, I am so so sorry to hear this. I lost my younger brother 15 years ago very suddenly, he was only 40, so I know what you are going through. My heart is with you. you do get through these things but you will always think of him and I miss my brother every day but that is how it should be.
    Our family is Irish and we did the memory card which I carry with me every day.
    Please take care. xxx

  79. Anne Bratley August 22, 2019 at 1:22 pm -  Reply

    I feel for you, I truly do. Yesterday the 21st was the 26th anniversary of our eldest son’s death. So many years but it was hard in the early years. No words from a stranger like me will really help but I know you will find comfort in your family and friends.

  80. Jean Fawcett August 22, 2019 at 1:49 pm -  Reply

    So sorry to hear of your loss, especially when it is so sudden and unexpected, my daughter in law lost her only child in December, aged only 23 years old. So thinking of you .x

  81. Caroline August 22, 2019 at 2:13 pm -  Reply

    Miceal, you have been having such a difficult and challenging time over the last year. I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your big brother. It must be such a horrible shock for you all and bring back memories of loosing your father. I feel at such a loss as to what to say to you right now but I salute your courage in sharing your deepest thoughts at this difficult time. You will get through it though and your mum and siblings are do lucky to have you. These moments in our lifes often bring into sharp focus an appreciation for all that is good which is a gift in itself. Be kind to yourself and ask for help when needed. You will find your new kind of normal again. Sending you much love during this desperately sad time and just to say thank you for being such a lovely human being – you are an inspiration xxx

  82. Caroline August 22, 2019 at 2:25 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal, I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been having such a difficult time over the last year, cumulating with the sudden and devastating loss of your big brother. I’m at a loss as to what I can say at this time as I know your emotions will be so raw and words won’t be of much comfort. Just to say though that you will find a new kind of normal again. Your comment about seeing the beauty in the places you visited in Ireland is testament to your indomitable positive outlook on life. Your siblings and mother are so very lucky to have you ( as you are to have them). Be kind to yourself and ask for help when needed. Thank you for being such a lovely human being and an inspiration as it can’t have been easy for you writing this post. Sending much love xx

  83. Jennifer Jordan August 22, 2019 at 5:39 pm -  Reply

    So sorry to hear your very sad news .What a beautiful poem Miceal, The letter you wrote brought me to tears as it was sincerely from the heart. It reminded me of when I lost my dad four years ago the only family member I had left in the whole world. Your brother’s will help you get through This, but time is a great healer. Sending you big hugs Jennifer X

  84. helen August 22, 2019 at 7:42 pm -  Reply

    My thoughts are with you God bless you and your family x

  85. Colleen August 22, 2019 at 8:00 pm -  Reply

    So very sorry for your loss. Your brother is not gone, he will always be with you in your heart and memories. Time is a healer but you will never forget. Take care and remember the happy times x

  86. Kay August 22, 2019 at 8:51 pm -  Reply

    So sorry for your Miceal i lost my husband as well my heart to you xx

  87. Elizabeth Clements August 22, 2019 at 9:42 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal,
    It must have been very difficult to write your latest blog. I found it hard to read and felt tears welling in my eyes. Losing your brother so suddenly will have taken its toll on you and all the family. What you are left with are memories and there must be lots of happy ones. look back to your childhood and there will be some memorable ones .
    Take care of your own health and look forward to better times.

  88. Grace Hughes August 22, 2019 at 10:16 pm -  Reply

    Miceal from the moment you joined QVC you bought class and style and a genuine Irish warmth. You complimented the already wonderful team seamlessly. You are now in so much pain and your honesty and frankness hit home . My sister died Bernadette died suddenly in January and it is a pain of such severity it makes you howl like s banshee!! I can’t take away your grief I wish I could but I share your sadness and send my arms and shoulders for a long and big Irish hug to you and your dear family. I am off to Knock in September and will pray and light a candle for you all xx

  89. Fiona August 22, 2019 at 10:23 pm -  Reply

    Miceal, I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my eldest brother, who was the fittest of the 3 of us, to a heart attack in 2013. When he died we hadn’t spoken for a while through various circumstances and I still hate it that I am not able to tell him now that he meant the world to me.
    I have a beautiful poem which I found on a card in a little shop in Cornwall which I probably shouldn’t print here because the lady who ran the shop wrote the poem but if you would like me to share it with you then let me know.
    God Bless you and your family. xxx

  90. Penny Roberts August 22, 2019 at 10:47 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal I feel we have a lot in common right now. my brother is terminally ill and I am having tests for heart problems. I agree we must tell the ones nearest to us how much we love them. My dearest husband Dave and I have been married 43 years and he was due to retire 2 years ago but 5 years ago he was diagnosed with Parkinsons. This was such a shock to both of us and our 2 children. Our retirement plans have changed considerably but I am having the garden landscaped and we often buy items for the garden from QVC. We have gone for a Japanese theme as I feel we could relax and enjoy it together. We enjoy watching you as you are so loving and friendly but had missed seeing you recently. Take care, Love from Penny Roberts x

  91. Helen Goodwin Kearney August 23, 2019 at 12:08 am -  Reply

    Hi Miceal,
    I don’t know you at all but was so touched by your writing about the loss of your brother. What a difficult thing to do.
    My father was from co Westmeath, as children we had wonderful holidays in and around Dublin.
    Also Dingle, what amazing unspoilt beaches.
    I do know the moving Irish writing and I love it.
    Thank you for sharing your thoughts…….they touched me deeply.

  92. sue August 23, 2019 at 2:30 am -  Reply

    Sorry for the loss of your brother . You have had a rough time is an understatement . You will get through this . Hope you are sleeping and taking care of yourself .Take 1 day at a time is how I got through the bad times .

  93. M Weir August 23, 2019 at 8:23 am -  Reply

    I’m weeping for you ; the sadness is palpable ~ I have in memoriam cards for so many family and friends : may he rest in the peace of Christ ; you must take time to grieve as work is unimportant ~ sending love from Scotland

  94. Jane Groat August 23, 2019 at 12:01 pm -  Reply

    Miceal so very sorry to hear your sad news,my heart goes out to you and your family.

  95. Margaret Sullivan August 23, 2019 at 3:53 pm -  Reply

    Hi Michael So sorry for your loss I just recently moved to Londo from New York You are a delight to watch especially as you are so pleasant and cheerful during this difficult time I lost my brother to suicide 5 years ago The pain never goes away It leaves a hole in your heart I am Irish myself . But Michael remember the good times with him and it will get easier but you will never forget

  96. Judith lennon August 23, 2019 at 9:17 pm -  Reply

    So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you at this difficult time. Let your family and friends be your strength. Judith xx

  97. Lucy Little August 23, 2019 at 9:29 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sending you and your family my love, sympathy and some big hugs, love Lucy xx

  98. BERNADETTE SKINNER August 23, 2019 at 9:36 pm -  Reply

    awh Micceal – your poor mother must be devastated not only to lose her son at such an young age but her first born. God bless you all -we don’t know the hour when we will be called so just enjoy life and take notice of all the beauty around you xx

  99. Susan Pringle August 23, 2019 at 11:00 pm -  Reply

    Hi Miceal. I have just read your blog and my heart goes out to you and your family. You are such a kind and caring man and I love watching you on QVC. Sending you lots of love. xx

  100. Dee August 24, 2019 at 12:37 am -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, my deepest sympathies to you and your family on the tragic loss of your brother. While I don’t have any words to soothe your pain, may the love expressed in all these messages and support of everyone around you in some small way help you through this dreadfully sad time. Warmest wishes, D

  101. Bev August 24, 2019 at 9:54 am -  Reply

    So sorry for your loss Miceal..you really have been through it recently. You are such a lovely gentle soul always with a smile. Keep well Miceal and take care.
    Bev x

  102. Alison Peacock August 24, 2019 at 11:00 am -  Reply

    Miceal, So sorry for your loss.Thinking of you and your family at this very sad time. xxx

  103. Keryn murphy August 24, 2019 at 2:03 pm -  Reply

    My thoughts are with you Miceal and your family at this terrible time , please look after yourself x

  104. Sandra August 24, 2019 at 3:39 pm -  Reply

    I am so so sorry for your loss Miceal. Your brother knew how much you loved him . Sending love and healing hugs to you and your family xx

  105. Eleanor wilton August 24, 2019 at 4:18 pm -  Reply

    So very sad to hear of the loss of your Brother. My thoughts are with you and your family at this very difficult time, stay strong.

  106. Claire Downing August 24, 2019 at 7:04 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, I write with such sadness and love for you and your dear family, for the loss of your precious brother. How difficult for you to write this. You and your family have had such a painful time .. you have many people who love and care for you. Please take time to look after yourself .. you are a wonderful person. My heartfelt love goes out to you and your family xx

  107. Lynda August 24, 2019 at 8:19 pm -  Reply

    My thought are with you Miceal. With love lynda.xxx

  108. Fran Whitehead August 24, 2019 at 11:18 pm -  Reply

    Miceal sending condolences to you and your family. My goodness 53 is no age at all. Your comments about appreciating your home resonated with me. Whether we are celebrating or mourning a loss, family and home is the best place to be. Keep talking about Feargal, yes grief can catch you out but your memories will be a great comfort to you.
    Take care, Fran.

  109. Maureen Avril Meredith August 25, 2019 at 12:42 pm -  Reply

    So sad for you. My husband of 56years passed away at the end of june,so i know how hard it is. Stay strong, remember all the happy times you and your family shared together. One day at a time.x

  110. Len Ashley August 25, 2019 at 10:57 pm -  Reply

    God bless you Miceal and may he always keep you safe ! Giving your anguish sadness and heartbreak to the lord Jesus Christ . Ask in prayer for the lord to carry you along in your times of deep pain and sorrow. The lord father god will lift you up and bring you peace in your hour of need. Much love Len x

  111. Hilary August 26, 2019 at 9:36 am -  Reply

    Dear Micael. You are in my thoughts. We lost a sister in June. I say ‘we’ because there were nine of us,now we are eight. Oh the heartache. Of words never spoken,thoughts never shared,of dreams unspoken. Our mum is 92. She has dementia. That was diagnosed just a year ago. But mum still knows us all. My heart is heavy for you all. X

  112. ROZ Williams August 26, 2019 at 3:08 pm -  Reply

    I’m so sorry to hear this after all you’ve been through , take care Micael x

  113. Pauline Goodwin August 26, 2019 at 7:03 pm -  Reply

    Dearest Miceal I was so sad to here about your brother please stay strong I no it is not easy I lost my brother to cancer and it was so hard to get over it I also suffer with heart problems so can understand what you are going through please give your mum all my love and much love to you also.Take one day at a time and don’t push yourself to much ,Love Pauline x

  114. Angie August 28, 2019 at 5:59 pm -  Reply

    So very sorry to hear of your dear brothers untimely passing .. may you and your family give each other the strength and love to help get through each day.. start the day with a smile and end it in the same way.. your gentle demeanour is a gift not many people have.. your very soul will guide you through this painful time.. much love to all of you .. xxxx

  115. Mary August 30, 2019 at 10:49 am -  Reply

    So sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers with you and your family xx

  116. Jo peate August 30, 2019 at 8:42 pm -  Reply

    So sorry to hear of your sad news.my nan used to say grief is the price we pay for love.you have good memories and they will help you in the months to come.God bless x

  117. MELANIE marsh September 1, 2019 at 7:47 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal, So sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family at this terribly sad time . Please look after yourself: you have been through so much. xxx

  118. Julie Atherton September 3, 2019 at 1:03 am -  Reply

    Miceal, I’m sending you my deepest sympathy for you and your family, especially your mum. It must be very hard and difficult for her, along with yourself and your family.
    I enjoy reading your blogs they are eloquently written.
    Take your time to grieve, has I would say to the relatives that lost loved ones, the grieving process is different for everyone.
    Once again I’m so sorry for your loss.x

  119. Sarah September 4, 2019 at 8:11 am -  Reply

    God bless you and your family, that is awful news. I am truly sorry for your loss and the unrelenting torrent of feelings you must be battling with. I imagine you may feel like a buoy, ripped from the security of its anchor and now bobbing around, lost at sea. Remember to take your own advice and reach out if you feel you need to. My prayers and hugs are with you x

  120. Rosemarie September 9, 2019 at 4:29 am -  Reply

    I’m so sorry about your brother,I too lost mine at a very young age so hard ,please look after yourself I hope your mother is coping bless you all

  121. Bev young September 9, 2019 at 11:35 am -  Reply

    I’m so sorry to hear of your brothers passing . Thinking of you and your family xx Take each day at a time – Much love xxx

  122. Bridget Trombetta September 9, 2019 at 7:27 pm -  Reply

    Sending love and prayers. so very very sorry. Take care. Bridget x

  123. Susanne Howard September 10, 2019 at 1:07 pm -  Reply

    Dear Miceal,
    So sorry to hear of your Brothers passing , i am thinking of you and your family.
    Coming from a family of uncles an Aunts who suffered from heart trouble i do understand. You’ll always have lovely memories and that he will always be in your heart.
    A Beautiful poem. Take care .
    Love Sue.x

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