I can't tell you the number of times I've thought about coming back to work and being on air – sometimes with apprehension, other times with longing, but always knowing that as soon as I was sitting there in front of you, I would be able to put the last nine months behind me
Of course Lucy's wedding was the pre-cursor, and once we were home from Cornwall I made the call and then the decision to put my life back on track. I have to say that all those behind the scenes at QVC who have kept a gentle network of support there for me could not have been kinder, and although I'll start with just a couple of days a week, I'm hoping that by December it'll be more.
There are two entrances to QVC at opposite ends of the building, and I chose to park at the far end so that I could sort of sneak in with my bags and my wig, before meeting up with everyone. It's not that I didn't want to see them, it's just that I wanted to take a deep breath…
I'd been shopping the day before to buy something new to wear. I talked to Kathy as I was worried about my arm and hand looking ridiculous, or that the rather large dent on the right side of my chest would show… oh, and that my make-up would melt if I had a hot flush!
Delighted though to have my eyelashes and brows almost fully grown back (thanks hugely to Revitalash!) I have also developed a fuzzy covering over my face and neck - blonde fuzz yes, but more like kitten fur than peach I felt… I was worried I might look like the bearded lady if there was a close up shot of any earrings! Of course Kathy's response was as always – kind and considerate… "Ali nobody cares about those things, it will ALL be fine" – bless her
And of course she was right. I saw Charlie first and he chose the dress I wore and, as you will have seen, was an absolute star during the show. Wendy backstage was there with a fan for the first sign of a hot flush, my Producer and Director were brill too… and as I said on air, it was like coming home :)
Thank you ALL so much for the lovely texts – I do want you to know that even though we weren't able to read them all out (well over 300 of them!) Gavin very kindly printed them off for me and so I DID receive them all, and read them all, and they made a perfect end to the day.
So much has happened to change my life over the last nine months, but with your help and support I have always held on tightly to the positive, and know that with my treatment, I have been given the VERY best chance of getting better. Being back at work this week, has compounded my sense of relief and luck at having been given that chance.
Something else that has really cheered me is to have been asked to make another speech at the Breast Cancer Care Carol Concert by Candlelight on the 5th December at St. Paul's Church, Knightsbridge. I am really honoured to have been chosen for this very special occasion, and plan to start writing my Reflection this weekend…
I thought I'd leave you with a few more photos from Lucy's wedding, and hope that you'll find time to send me your photos for my gallery… thanks to Jo, Liz, Gail, Debz and Ainzley, Sue, Helen and Olivia, and Babs – you're ALL looking great. I'll see you next Tuesday at midday with my snuggly Emu boots on!
With my love, Ali xx