Deep breath and off I go…

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Surely I’ll be OK and be able to start a blog. A what, I hear you cry. It’s about time too.
 
But where on earth shall I start? Shall it be a casual “Hello.” No, no, no that’s so not enough. How about a little catch up? No, tooooo much has been happening for that! So, OK, I think I’ll just dive in and hope my ramblings will make sense and that you’ll actually want to read my blog…
 
Firstly, I would like to say a great big, humungous THANK YOU to you all for bearing with me and I hope you can forgive me for my lack of action on the blog page. I hope you don’t feel I’ve abandoned you and will accept me back in to your lovely fold!!!


Where shall I begin?

I’d better go back a bit just to vaguely explain what I’m on about! So, remember we moved into our house in March and even though we were living in a somewhat antiquated house, we were already in love!

Plans to totally alter this loved house were necessary and we began some of the building project whilst we were living there. When the roof come off we moved out, which was in January this year. We rented a vile house for six months – oops that’s rather strong, but true. Ali Keenan will vouch for that. And I guess that’s where we got up to on my last blog wasn’t it?

In June, poor Dan’s Birthday actually, I repacked us up (that was pack up number three) and certainly not what I felt like doing following tow launches here at work, which you know means a bedtime of 4.15am since the Zone with ITV has been happening. However the long awaited day had arrived and so we were IN…finally!

Now the house was and IS fabulous, though I was  shell shocked as all I could muster up for weeks was a feeble, "Yes, it’s lovely" when I was asked. The day we moved in I couldn’t even decide which of my begged, stolen, borrowed and cobbled together kitchen cupboards I was going to unpack my mugs into.


Overwhelmed

I think the day after we moved in I holed myself up in my bedroom while the builders fitted skirting boards. I was staring out into the garden just…well staring. OVERWHELMED, now there’s an admission but truly that’s how I felt.  It was such a strange feeling as I knew I should be jumping for joy. We were finally back in after the huge project. We were so lucky, yet, I was all sort of ‘nothingy’, if there is such a word (there is now!).

I had lovely friends and family to show round, tonnes of boxes of all my treasures to finally unpack and although we were (and still are!!!!) a work in progress, I was weirdly, well ‘nothingy’ – there’s that word again!

So, I battened down the hatches and in between lots of work and looking after the children, which was all I seemed able to pull out of the bag, a few special friends suggested subtly, (well to start with!) that I perhaps needed to ‘see someone!’


Where had the bubbly Claire gone?

I came to the conclusion I needed to find the deeply embedded, somewhat eccentric, joyful Claire that is me, well most of the time anyway!  I had planned to make an appointment to see my Dr to have a chat, but I was given a number of a wonderful lady who practises Chinese 5 Elements Acupuncture.

I’ll be honest, ordinarily I’d have said "Thank you" and tucked it into my bag, but I didn’t. For some reason I called her and well all I can say is thank heavens I did. I cannot seem to put into words the difference she has made. It’s actually quite difficult explaining it, but I no longer feel the need to speak to the Dr and am just, well me again!

I’m nervous to even be trying to speak about it all really, but to just breeze back on here with a "Hello" would feel wrong, rude somehow and possibly undermine how wrong I have been feeling.

Anyway I am truly delighted to say hello with my usually chirpy jollyness and now let me tell you about the house, if I may!


Now let me tell you about the house…

This week the trouble I’ve had selecting the perfect colour of green for the hall has been really quite hysterical. Now I’m a girl who prides herself on having the knack when it comes to colour, if I do say so myself! So off I set to match the curtains I had brought from our other house… a fortune later and a patchwork of varying green tester paints on the wall and hey presto,  it proved that the light was just altering things too much.  

I was questioning my abilities and contemplating starting from scratch with an entirely new colour scheme, and add into that the search for wallpaper to co-ordinate, when finally, hours and hours later I nailed it. My new found excitement, as I persuaded Dan that I’d nailed it, swiftly evaporated as I was told the wallpaper had been discontinued only three weeks earlier. How very dare they?! So, paint bought, curtain fabric being added in to extend the current width, I now await at least 12 samples of paper to hopefully complete my quest!

The colour in question is a divine soft almost duck egg colour, but more grey green, plus a touch of metallic thrown in – so you can see my dilemma. Actually, writing down that we’re doing the hall, stairs and landing implies we’re nearly there – well, not really!

Maddie has carpet, and finally the dresses hung at her window as curtaining are down, she has curtains! I nearly wept! The boys will have carpet this weekend, hopefully, oh and I’m also looking to have a runner and landing carpet in a boldish stripe. Yet another thing to factor in the hall plan!

Obviously the main factor in our home is that the money tree just doesn’t seem to be blooming this season. I must speak to Richard Jackson about that! The old saying "money doesn`t grow on trees" is so jolly well true regardless of the amount of water it gets!

Incredibly I’m ok with it all really even though I am Mrs Impatient and I’m really appreciative of each small thing we’ve managed to do since the summer and am just so thrilled with what we have, which amazingly is so what we hoped for.  I guess not everyone can say that after a build.

And thanks to Dan’s incredible attention to detail and project managing of it all, a superb team of builders, who finished ON TIME and TO BUDGET, it really is the home we can all grow together in.


The to do list is still pretty big

The chandelier is still nestling in its blanket as the lantern roof thing is on the ‘to do list’ Dan won’t let me have it up(meanie) till that’s saved for.  You’ll all know that the kitchen is a make-do one, minus an oven and hob, though I totally assure you we are all eating well as my microwave converts to a small oven.

My friend Anna cannot comprehend that the kitchen isn’t top of our wish list – well it is! It’s just the money for smaller things in the house are easier to collate together, hence the carpet, wallpaper etc!!

My clothes are all gathering dust as they are all on rails around my dressing room\en-suite, so please tell me if I look a little dusty!! Actually I lost count the amount of people who said, "I’ll come back and look when you’ve put the bath in place and it’s not in the middle here.” Yes, you’ve guessed it was already in position!

I promise we did check with our very good friend who’s an estate agent, just to be sure some of our ideas weren’t toooo foolish. Not that we intend to sell, but we didn’t want to have created a pink elephant -  bet that’s painted a picture of weird and wonderful things we’ve done which I assure you we haven’t!

Now, I shall be asking for help for ideas to dress the massive picture window in our bedroom. It’s a tricky one and without a doubt will be a huge job. Whoever decided the glass should cover the entire wall? Three guesses…Mr Dan, who didn’t even think about fabrics!

I must tell you all about Mummy’s birthday party, dressing up as Daryl Hannah and smoozling with Gino De Campo! But you’ll have to wait for the next blog.

All my love to you, my lovely friends, and I can’t wait to hear all about you too.

Claire
X

81 Comments

  1. Keith November 18, 2010 at 9:55 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    How wonderful it is to have you back! :) Thank you so much for your huge post – I have really missed you!
    It is sad that you have been feeling down recently, but I’m delighted to hear you are on the mend and getting back to the wonderful and cheery Claire that we all know & love. You always look amazing on QVC and bring a smile to my face, so if there is anything I can do to help make you smile please let me know! :)
    Wow, you really have been busy. Your house sounds delightful, you must be so proud of yourself & your family.
    Please come back soon and keep us up to date!
    Looking forward to seeing you on QVC.
    Love, Keith.

  2. Teresa Karasavvas November 18, 2010 at 11:07 pm -  Reply

    All the best Claire and family in your new home – we have missed you.

  3. Lizzie November 18, 2010 at 11:24 pm -  Reply

    Claire I was really pleased to see you are back to blog land after sooo long away. I am sorry to hear that you have had a tough time of late it was probably caused by the stress of all the house stuff and working hard with the family and work but am glad that you have found something that has made you feel better . Being a dreamer of all things “homey” and always finding myself drooling over house and garden magazines I would love for you to post some pictures of your lovely new home (forgive me if that is too nosey!).
    Looking forward to your more regular blogs and wishing you all the best.
    Lizzie x

  4. Lorraine November 19, 2010 at 10:11 am -  Reply

    Hi Lovely Claire, I have missed you and so glad you are back. I am sorry you have had such a tough time of it. Us Woman keep going on regardless and something has to give. Its great you found help – I have ME and have to use alternative remedies as I am so drug sensitive so I am glad you also found them very helpful.
    Take care and dont beat yourself up about things.
    Lorraine x

  5. Claire Sutton November 19, 2010 at 11:38 am -  Reply

    I hardly dared look, but a big smile came over my face as I read your reply Keith! You are lovely and phew I feel tonnes better for writing my blog. Some times to tackle the things we put off actually makes a heap of difference to how we feel….Now as to your offer to help me put a smile on my face!!!!! Actually just reading the offer did just that!! I’ll be here again soon, and will see you all this weekend and Mon and Tues morning.
    With my love,
    Claire

  6. Claire Sutton November 19, 2010 at 11:39 am -  Reply

    Teresa, I was touched to read your response, a big hank you and have a lovely Friday
    Love Claire xxx

  7. Claire Sutton November 19, 2010 at 11:40 am -  Reply

    Oh Lizzie, I too love a gorg glossy to pour over. I try hard not to do it in the shops and treat myself every now and then to one, it`s annoying when they’re either too boring or way too , dare I say it pretencious!!!
    Actually it’s probably just envy talking as the price tags are mad!!!
    I’ll try and find a bit that’s worthy of photographing, maybe an arty shot will disguise the many “to do bits!”
    So lovely of you to keep checking in to me though Lizzie.
    Lots of love, Claire xxx

  8. Pearl Emery November 19, 2010 at 2:42 pm -  Reply

    Hi Clair, it is so nice to see you back, and i am glad you are feeling better, wishing you and family all the best in your new home. love Pearl xx ps thanks for a great blog.

  9. Jenny Longworth November 19, 2010 at 4:31 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire! Lovely to have you back. I was sad to hear that you were feeling depressed. I too have been very depressed since my son has gone to Uni. Actually, it had been creeping up for a long, long time. I think maybe I will try ‘Acupuncture’ as nothing else has worked. How long did it take before you felt better, Claire. It’s amazing what stress does to us isn’t it? I’m so pleased that you are back to your bubbly self and that you are settling into your nice new home. I hope that you and your lovely family have a wonderful Christmas. My very best wishes to you all, love Jennyxxxxx

  10. Julie Cekalla November 19, 2010 at 6:38 pm -  Reply

    Dear Claire
    Your honesty is such a rare quality nowadays especially considering that you are a TV presenter. Too many people want to pretend that their lives are soooo perfect when usually it is far from the truth and of course it is then that they run the risk of ending up with egg on their faces. I also remember the wonderful story you shared with us about your young family which really touched my heart. It’s always obvious to me that you are being genuinely open and honest, you exude charm and personality (even if you are not always feeling that inside) and are an extremely stylish young woman. Of all the QVC presenters it is usually you who I think “I wonder where she go that from?” Your home sounds wonderful, it would be nice to see some pics but understand that some things should remain private. Good luck for the future I’m sure you will come out of this an even stronger and wiser person.
    Best Wishes
    Julie x

  11. Keith November 19, 2010 at 10:35 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. I realise you are very busy these days but you don’t know how good it is to hear that I helped to cheer you up, even just a little.
    I hope now you will take more time for yourself to relax as we all need time to destress.
    I have the luxury of a week off work now, so I’ll be watching on Monday & Tuesday and looking out for an extra large smile! :)
    Love, Keith

  12. Joanna Downey November 20, 2010 at 5:25 pm -  Reply

    Dear Claire, you are way too hard on yourself. We set up all these expectations and then, very often, everything goes flat. I have a lovely Daughter, she’s 25 and came back engaged to her gorgeous boyfriend after a 3 week holiday in Bali. That was in April, we knew because my Husband’s permission had been sought, and given, and we were all delighted. Then, they decided to move house… This girl, who had always been such a joy, changed and we argued so much which has never happened before. I felt that I had lost my Daughter and neither of us could explain why. Eventually she got her balance back. I know that we all face things in life that no amount of planning can prepare us for so we need to be kind to ourselves and come out the other end. Most people think that moving/renovating is just messy. I think that having our roots disturbed is life- affecting and should not be dismissed. Have a wonderful Christmas season, make new memories and start to enjoy the relationship with your new home. To put it all into perspective, I’ve just got overtaken by the desire to paint our hall/stairs/landing in a sort of “putty” colour. It will be quite an undertaking size-wise and the weather is damp so I can’t see the paint drying quickly, we’ll need new curtains, even a different carpet. Everyone says that the colour will be depressing but I just want to do it.Love from Jo in Stourbridge.

  13. Gail November 20, 2010 at 5:32 pm -  Reply

    Dear Claire, how lovely to hear from you and how brave of you to share your story. Too much stress is definitely not a good thing; stress overload can lead to many illnesses so you were wise to worry, and even wiser to seek help. You are such a lovely lady with lovely children and a very handsome husband so I would say you are a very lucky girl. Try to take things slow and prioritise. Also, remember nothing is more important than health. Everything will get done in time, but only if you have your health. Your new house sounds lovely and it would be nice to see a photo (perhaps a before and after would be nice). You take it easy; not easy at this time of year I know. If at any time you feel you need a giggle, go to Ali Keenan’s blog. Her blogs re her drawers and tights will keep you amused I’m sure. Keep well Claire, take it easy and everything will be okay in the end. Make sure you leave time for ‘Claire’. You take care of yourself and that lovely family of yours. Gail xxxxxxx

  14. Anita Belding November 20, 2010 at 9:17 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    Nice to hear from you again , have missed you, We have moved recently , and quite understand how you feel, its such an upheaval
    and all these mixed emotions go around your head! All will be well
    now you are In , keep smiling x x
    love Anita x

  15. Sylvia November 20, 2010 at 10:36 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    Im so glad you have blogged again.I wondered what was wrong.You seemed to have it all and I think you have just tried to do too much.I myself went into a deep depression after my husband and I were nearly killed in a bomb blast.It puts your life into prespective doesn,t it.I now look at each day as a new beginning,one which we are both blessed to have unlike others who lost their lives.Please remember others are thinking of you and wishing you and your family well.Take Care and speak soon.x

  16. Tracy Lawrence November 21, 2010 at 1:57 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    So lovely to have you back, I’ve been checking in and out to see if you had updated your blog and was soooo pleased today to see that you have.
    Sorry to hear you’ve been feeling so down but great that you found someone to help you back to your usual bubbly self! Though I must say, you’ve hidden your feelings so well on camera -that is a real testament to your strength and professionalism!
    Wishing you and your family lots of luck and happiness in your lovely new home!
    Tracy
    x

  17. Claire Sutton November 22, 2010 at 8:43 am -  Reply

    Lorraine,
    Oh how true, and I’ll try about the beating up thing!! It’s really amazing that there is so much out there available to us if we look and are open to it I guess. I’m so glad you find some things help you a little with your ME. Have you ever tried the 5 element Accupuncture? It hurts, but oh so worth it,
    Much love , Claire x

  18. Claire Sutton November 22, 2010 at 8:43 am -  Reply

    Pearl,
    Thank you for bothering to read and for your reply to me, that was lovely of you,
    Have a super weekend, I’ll see you on the telly!!!
    Love Claire xx

  19. Tony November 22, 2010 at 12:15 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    Nice to read a new blog from you, at last. With the moving mostly out of the way now, hopefully you have more time to blog about you, your family or whatever comes to your mind. I look forward to pictures of the new house now.
    Glad to see “Bubbly Claire” again although I have to confess, I didn’t see any difference in the past few months despite being an avid viewer wherever you are on (Gosh I’m blushing !!!)
    Have a nice day
    Tony

  20. Kristina Moore November 22, 2010 at 12:28 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire, it is great that you have managed to blog again. I missed your stories too. The stress levels you and your family have had to deal with this year (trying to deal with jobs, school, building decisions and living somewhere you don’t like) don’t go away without leaving you with a problem. I am glad that the acupuncture helped you.
    Like Lorraine I have CFS/ME and have to take life more slowly. It isn’t life stopping just life changing in my case. There are many, many people a whole lot worse off than me so I am grateful for what I can do. I do moan when it hurts but I know I am very, very lucky. Honest.
    If you can make yourselves a room that is a sanctuary, ie all finished, that you can all escape to when it gets too much elsewhere it might help and give you breathing spaces within the ongoing creation of the house.
    It will all get done and sorted in the end and the creating of the house will become a memory and if you have before and after photos this would make a great scrapbook.
    Good luck to you all and I hope the house will turn into your dream.
    Hugs
    Tina XX

  21. claire sutton November 22, 2010 at 1:35 pm -  Reply

    Hello you totally lovely lot. In haste I’m writing this JUST to let you know I’ve been reading your replies. I’ll send my personal hellos later tonight, but right now I must dash to collect an “off colour” little daughter and the traffic’s awful at this time. So I’ll see you later…so to speak!!!!
    Love Claire xxx

  22. Jo November 22, 2010 at 2:45 pm -  Reply

    Crikey Claire, SO glad you are back with us. The problem with us women is that we put our makeup on in the morning, smile, face the world, and put such a good show on to everyone, that no-one is aware what is going on inside our heads. You obviously have been a prime example! Ever the professional, you have shown no signs to the outside world that you were not on top form. Glad you are on the mend. Keep your chin up! Love Jo x

  23. debi stubbs November 22, 2010 at 10:42 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire, nice to hear from you again, sorry to hear you were feeling down, but was glad you didn’t let it fester and sought help.
    I myself had a tough time last year with my sister diagnosed with cervical cancer people dont realise the whole family suffer.
    But i had a brilliant counsellor and am now back to my bubbly self.
    Take Care
    Debi x

  24. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:44 am -  Reply

    Oh I am sorry Jenny that you too have been struggling feeling down, well more than…. I guess when such a huge change is upon us it totally alters the dynamic of our life and how it’s been for so long. It is understandable but oh so hard to cope with, I know Ali Keenan has felt it with Sam leaving for uni too. It’s not till you feel better that you realise how bad you actually have been feeling. I unbelievably felt “different” after the first treatment, I dont think there were many more tears I could’ve shed so the timing was perfect… I think Chinese 5 elements is a different type of accupuncture though so really enquire about it. I guess like anything it may not be for all, but I’m so so glad it has been for me, and I hope it may help you too.
    All luck and wishing you some happier time Jenny,
    With my Love , Claire xx

  25. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:47 am -  Reply

    Julie,
    I really really appreciate your reply. I think open and honest are lovely things to write and I was touched. It’s funny as we all spend so long thinking everyone else is coping so well and it must just be me feeling this way, but as soon as we let it out, or let someone in we realise most everyone is the same.
    I suppose when you live a little more of a public life then there is also realisation that you may in fact be a little of an escape for some people, so to admit that in fact we’re all much the same may indeed mean you disappoint people.(.not me necessarily but proper Celebs!) Does that make sense at all!? I know what I meant but somewhat lost in translation me thinks!
    I’m delighted to think you like some of the things I wear too Julie, though if you could see me now…Emus, chill-out trousers, and a huge all-enveloping cream cardi you may wish to retract the comments, though my scarf is a bit lovely even though I say so myself!!
    Much love on this chilly Monday, Claire xxxx

  26. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:50 am -  Reply

    Jo,
    Wise words indeed from you. It is important to have high expectations I think, but yes, not always can we, or they live up it and often the skills we need to cope are lost if indeed there at all!
    I’m so glad to hear that things are settled and the all vital balance is back for your daughter and you. The Bali bit sounded fab, and a dream come true. It’s funny I had a conversation with a friend about how totally ecstatic you are, well ok was, when Dan asked me to marry him and yet still the woah moment of…Oh my God, this is it, I’vee wanted it so much and now here it is and…..am i doing the right thing, even though i totally knew i was…. it still flew into my head. I wonder if that AND the house move all added up to such a shift for your daughter? They always say you take it out on your closest people, cos you can…supposedly!
    With regards to “putty” my friend Luana, a very stylish lady has decorated in similar shades and it’s oh so sophisticated, so go on do it. I’m always amazed how many people offer up their opinions when as far as I knew I hadn’t asked them. Stick to your instinct. Mind you I had a lovely colour on my lounge wall in our 1st home…affectionately known as “bile”.
    As I sit feeling a tad nauseous from the smell of drying paint I await to hear the next stage!!!!
    Lots of love Jo, Claire xxx

  27. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:52 am -  Reply

    Oh my word, I laughed and laughed, Ali is totally fantastic. It reminded me of when I went on stage with Ken Dodd and I had my bra attatched to my costume…nice!!! Oh she is funny, we had such a nice evening together recently, laughing and putting the world to rights. I’ve just texted her and hoping I’ll see her at Lola Rose’s 10th year celebrations on Thursday.
    Right now, the dishwasher is on, the washing, the tumble. Maddie is off colour and Joe…so tomorrow may well be tricky. Oh how I wish I could pop them into my pocket and have them with me. Still your advice of take it easy is ringing in my ears and there’s a million things I should do….but another 5am start , so…..BATH AND BED!!! Thats my plan!
    When Dan arrives back from playing football, he’ll wonder where I am. I’m grateful for your advice Gail, and heeding it…well tonight anyway!!
    Love Claire xxx

  28. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:53 am -  Reply

    Anita,
    All will be well, oh how comforting those words were, thank you. I’m such a homey girl and realise it more than ever after having severed roots for a while.
    Hope you’re settled in your new home too.
    With my love,
    Claire xx

  29. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:55 am -  Reply

    Sylvia, how totally hideous for you. You see I’d have never known that about you, so I’m glad I came clean and shared. It must’ve been so totally life changing and as much as we say that and endevour to be different, it’s a shock that we revert to our old ways. I`m so pleased to hear you are cherishing your days. I too, especially as I have a funeral on Friday – a special girl lost her huge fight and is in heaven now, but her 3, 6 and 10 year old children, husband, parents, family and countless friends are trying to accept she is no longer here…too too sad. So we owe it to Rachel to, well, pull it out of the bag, as I say. I know you’ll agree.
    Sending my love to you Sylvia,
    Claire xxx

  30. Claire Sutton November 23, 2010 at 8:57 am -  Reply

    Tracy,
    Thank goodness and thank you for that. I would be so disappointed if I’d failed you all and been morose and ploppy on air. Poor Dan has had that version, but true to form he’s been a super star and rallied round and held the fort, mostly, though not on a Monday as Football always comes first…only since Maddie was born, weird that!
    I just wanted to say how very, very appreciative I am and lucky to have so many of you all responding and concerned for me…THANK YOU Tracy, with love C xxx

  31. claire sutton November 23, 2010 at 11:32 am -  Reply

    Mr Tony!!!! BLUSH AWAY!!! very delighted you enjoy watching,and I shall endevour to amuse you with some snippets here!,
    Have a lovely Tuesday, with my love CLAIRE XXX

  32. claire sutton November 23, 2010 at 11:40 am -  Reply

    Tina, Hello my lovely and thank you for understanding. It’s important to hang on to the realisation that we are so lucky, which is admirable with difficulties you face for sure.
    Its Maddie’s room I head up to, whilst not done, it’s a lovely room and I love all her little treasures. She has a wall of pictures, some are paintings and others odd special ones. It’s a happy room, a pink wall and the pretty summer palace fabric from Laura Ashley I fell in love with for her. So the childrens rooms are my escape at the moment…sound advice though and I think the lounge could be the nearly completed room.
    Speak soon,
    Love Claire xx Ps following up a “lead” on a gypsy caravan….I’ll let you know!! x

  33. Steven November 23, 2010 at 6:25 pm -  Reply

    Great to see a blog from you again Claire. Moving house sounds like such a hassle. Hope things settle down for you now and look forward to seeing more blogs and your’e happy smiley face on QVC
    LOve Steven xx

  34. Cindy Corrigan November 24, 2010 at 7:03 am -  Reply

    Dearest girl, how lovely to have your exuberant witterings back, they fill my day with smiles! So pleased to hear that you are back to your old self and that the house project is progressing well, if slowly. Good Luck to you and your family in your new home, I hope that the sun will shine into the picture window and light up your days for years and years.
    Love Cindy xx

  35. Claire Sutton November 24, 2010 at 1:19 pm -  Reply

    Cindy, you sound just like my friend with your words. In fact, I’ve just shown her the window in daylight, as she’s only ever seen at night, she said she’d spend all her time just sitting and reading at the foot of my bed if she had it.
    Today is so sunny, though ALL 3 of mine off school, so change of day plans and lots of cuddling going on this end. Maddie’s eating custard and an ice lolly – totally nutritious, not! But bless her she’s a poorly girl.
    Sunny lovely day wishes for you, from me. xxx

  36. Claire Sutton November 24, 2010 at 1:22 pm -  Reply

    Steven, well how lovely of you to reply! It has cheered me just to realise you have been checking in and missing my witterings! Hassle yes, but even though vile drawn out experience, really worth it all!! Off to order the wallpaper…
    Have a super day,
    Lots of love Claire xxx

  37. Julie Ann Roberts November 24, 2010 at 1:56 pm -  Reply

    Welcome back Claire; you have been greatly missed! I think we viewers take for granted that QVC presenters are always happy and smilely, when in fact, you are all only human like the rest of us and what is shown on the surface is not always how you feel inside! I’m really glad you’re feeling better because you always make me feel better when I’m down! Few people know that I have bulimia as I too ‘appear just my normal self’ on the outside, when in fact, I’m very lost and sad on the inside.
    Keep smiling Claire!
    All the very best! Love Julie, age 26 x x

  38. Lorraine November 24, 2010 at 2:38 pm -  Reply

    Hi Lovely Claire,
    I having been thinking about tying Accupuncture for sometime. Whats different about the 5 element Accupuncture and not sure about the bit “it hurts” lol.
    Take care and so lovely to see you back xxxxx

  39. Gee November 24, 2010 at 11:15 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire,
    Good to see you back, although sorry you have had a tough few months. Moving house is sooo stressful, especially when you want everything to be right for everyone else in the family. I must have moved at least ten times in the last ten years what with work and everything, and yes, you do get to a point where you think ‘well, I won’t bother unpacking that box!’ becasue it just feels temporary. And a safe and happy place to call home is so important, so I’m glad you seem to have found that now in your new house. Pleased you are feeling more yourself again, and very best wishes to you and your family.
    Take care,
    Gee

  40. Steven November 25, 2010 at 1:17 pm -  Reply

    Ooh yuck I hate looking for wallpaper. Then again Im the type of guy that like to know what he’s going for get it and get out of a shop again!
    Just like to add you have looked sensational in a couple of shows I have caught a glimpse of this week
    Steven
    xxxxxx

  41. Susan November 25, 2010 at 7:17 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    I am really glad you are feeling happier and probably ‘normal’ now? I too have missed your blogs but totally understand that you all have your own lives, troubles and normal goings on just like everyone else. I think sometimes people forget that! I sympathise greatly with your feelings as I have suffered at the hands myself and it is unfortunately too easy to suffer alone. I don’t want to talk about it here but I know it’s effects all too well. I am glad you have your fabulous husband and family. I don’t have a great network but many people don’t even have a Mum or a Dad to talk to so I count myself very lucky in that way. I have said many times just like yourself that with the terrible situation with jobs (lack of) and finances (lack of) it is no wonder many of us are struggling! I said to Debbie G that we have decided not to do a big Christmas this year like many others and do you know I don’t think it’s a bad thing! We can but do our best and don’t feel bad about not being superwoman. I have been given that great advice myself. A lot of great advice given out above too!
    You take care and look after yourself and your beautiful 3 kiddies.
    Susan x

  42. Martin forbes bucksburn aberdeen November 26, 2010 at 6:45 pm -  Reply

    Hi claire .
    my first time writing to you on your blog it is excellent and good to have you back on.
    Good to hear about you rmove to your hopuse .
    and how are you iam not bad.

  43. Martin forbes bucksburn aberdeen November 27, 2010 at 6:24 pm -  Reply

    Hi claire
    first time i writing on your blog enjoying rading it how are you aim not bad.
    hope you have settled in to your house now.

  44. Jane Duff November 27, 2010 at 10:35 pm -  Reply

    Dear Claire
    Welcome back to blogging- you have been sorely missed. I am so pleased that you are now on the mend, although I would not have known anything was amiss from your TV persona.
    As somebody who suffers from continued ill health i kow how tough it can be to keep things going. I hope that your house proves to be everything you want and more for you and your family.
    Look forward to reading more from you in the future, but will understand if it is not as regularly as we woudl wish.
    Hope that you all have a lovely Christmas
    take care
    jane

  45. adrienne November 27, 2010 at 11:50 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,lovely to read what your up to as I have really missed your blog.I think we girls go through traumatic experiences in life and seem to be expected to carry on regardless. Sometimes the real ‘us’ gets lost along the way.
    I know when I had my twins by an emergency c section I took on my new role but it was such along time before I looked in the mirror and saw me again or felt like me again.
    You have such grace and seem unflappable even though from your blogs you sound like you are juggling many plates!
    Anyway as I said lovely to have you back,take care Adrienne x

  46. Rihana November 28, 2010 at 10:47 am -  Reply

    Dear Claire, so glad to know you are getting back to your normal sunshine self, you are a true professional because, to be honest, I really could not tell you were experiencing such turmoil, you always look fabulous as you did yesterday (sat 27th Nov) during the sandstone hour (by the way where did you get that gorgeous dress, blue/black with a multitude of colour???? I want one to cheer up these wintry days!!!) Glad you are back on track! Wishing you and yours love, kisses and best wishes, Rihana xxxxxxxx

  47. moira November 29, 2010 at 12:12 am -  Reply

    hi claire ,
    so glad you are back , i realy miss reading your blog. i hope you and your family will be very happy in your new home. and you take care.
    god bless.

  48. claire sutton November 29, 2010 at 1:23 pm -  Reply

    Oh, lovely people, I’m racing again as Joe still unwell so I have to relieve my mother in law and race to collect him, oh he’s so wan and pale…but just to say hello and I’ll be replying to you all tonight and tommorow,
    Big Kisses,
    Claire xx

  49. Dorothy November 29, 2010 at 6:22 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    Sooooooo pleased to see you back, but sorry you have not been well.You know what they say a problem shared is a problem halfed it always good to talk. But sometimes it not always easy, just take a few steps back and slow down, we are not robots something has to give. Pleased the house is coming together i know what you mean i want everthing done (YESTERDAY)but it does’nt work that way. Just keep smiling you always make us smile.
    love to all the family
    Dorothy xxxxx

  50. Julie Pearce November 29, 2010 at 6:25 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    Just wanted to ditto everyone’s replies; it really is lovely to have you back and it was so lovely of you to share your story with us with such genuine honesty. What a mammoth task you have undertaken and it’s quite understandable to have lost a little momentum along the way. Sooo glad you found someone to help give you your Ooomph back and put “nothingy” away in the closet! Your home sounds amazing and this time next year you’ll be looking out of that stunning window with lush roman blinds and swinging drapes (or whatever you decide on) and you’ll think back to “nothingy” as that little blip on the golden horizon that is now your Forever Home with lovely hubby and special babies. Love Julie x

  51. Janice reeves November 30, 2010 at 10:23 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire, Thankyou for you lovely blog, just glad to have you back, we have missed you and yes house move is stressful but this has been a little more elongated, love to all your family and have a very Happy Christmas love janicexxx

  52. Morag November 30, 2010 at 10:26 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    So lovely to have you back again. Sometimes we all need to just take some time out, and you have had so much on your plate to deal with. In these circumstances, real “friends” (in this case your QVC viewer friends) will understand and empathise. I completely admire your ability to keep so many balls in the air at the one time, with family, career and a major house project, no wonder you experienced so many feelings of exhaustion. But your bubbles are fizzing again, and long may it continue.
    Love and all the best for the festive season to you and your family. Love Moragxx

  53. Kathleen Donnelly December 1, 2010 at 3:15 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire,
    Glad you are feeling better, juggling a family and a home move is a big thing.. been there, I know, but things happen when you least expect it, I am sure your friends and family where there for you, so glad to see you back at QVC, I knew you were troubled with something earlier on, you get to know presenters and their ways… Anyway good luck with your new house.. you will get there eventually, and everything will fall into its place, keep positive… Love Kathleen x

  54. David Morris December 1, 2010 at 9:09 pm -  Reply

    Hi gorgeous claire!
    Welcome back to the land of blog. Sorry to here that things have been dificult for you but hopefully things are better now even if not quite 100%. Hope my letter & gifts to raffle for charity didn’t come at an inopportune moment but may have raised a little smile, especially the calender mistake!! oh and pics. (will have to make Ali K miss bonus, LOL). I can’t believe also it’s a year since i met you when having lunch with Catherine Huntley, would love to buy you both a coffe & cake and give you a big hug, simply because you are both such nice people who brighten up a cold chilly day. I expect you would prefer the coffe & cake to a hug though. Keep well and look forward to seeing you even more.
    David xxx

  55. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 4:14 pm -  Reply

    Julie Anne,
    I’ve thought a lot about you since I read your reply…I hope the people you do confide in are able to support you. I remember at Laine Theatre Arts, where I trained – the terrific turmoil one friend in particular suffered with an eating disorder….I hope so much you find some peace inside lovely girl.
    With my love Claire x

  56. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 4:18 pm -  Reply

    Miss Lorraine, …honest answer I don’t know! I’ll find out from Jane how to best explain it. The “hurt” bit is possibly cos I was sooooooooooo blocked. I described it as the uuurgh of a contraction, but swift! Please DO NOT be put off! I’ll find out more!
    C xxx

  57. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 4:22 pm -  Reply

    Gee,
    10 times in 10 years! wow, but i agree the feeling of “just for now” and “what’s the point” have been bandied around. I am such a home girl so it’s a delight to be able to finally unpack all, even though some things are still in temporary places!
    Thank you so much for replying to my blog again,
    Lots of love,Claire x

  58. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 4:29 pm -  Reply

    Susan,
    It is so lovely realsing how apt the advice is and how kind in the sharing of it. Debbie Flint actually left a magnet in my dressing room saying…I am Woman, I am invincible…I am tired! That and a bottle of childrens bubbles, to remind me as you have, superwoman I am not, nor do I need to be, far from it, but HAPPY? Yes please!
    We too are paring down this year, wouldn’t it be great if we all managed to do so without the guilt. Thought and love are the most important ingredients after all,
    Take Care Susan, and THANK YOU! XX

  59. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 4:35 pm -  Reply

    Martin,
    Thank you for your lovely comments, I am sorry I’ve taken some time to reply but with children sent home from school poorley, work here busy busy…lots of early starts, I haven’t managed to reply. So I’m praying that I’m ok driving home, so grabbing 5 minutes to reply and to tidy my very messy dressing room!
    Take Care Martin,
    Love Claire xx

  60. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:09 pm -  Reply

    Grace and unflappability!!! ILOVE YOU! Thanks so much Adrienne. How old are your twins? Such a life changer isn’t it, lovely though,
    Super to hear from you
    Take care of yourself
    Love Claire xxxx

  61. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:22 pm -  Reply

    Jane and Moira,
    Ladies THANK YOU for missing me!! Glad to hear it, bless you,
    My love to you both,
    xx

  62. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:26 pm -  Reply

    Rhiana,
    It’s a John Lewis dress by…uuummm , oh yes Derby, I have a few dresses by them, that one gets lots of comments, Thank you ever so much..I was silly on that show, going off on tangents…oh well! Hopefully it amused everyone, and if not…there’s always the off button I guess!!
    Lots of love on this snowy early evening!!
    Claire xx

  63. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:30 pm -  Reply

    Julie…nothingy firmly in cupboard and zest and ooooomph back, especially if I achieve the look for my bedroom I have planned, though stripey stair runner and landing is first….ooooh it’s delicious, toooo pricey, but you never know, they may say ok we’ll reduce the price – here’s hoping!!
    Big thanks for a lovely message though,
    All love, Cxx

  64. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:32 pm -  Reply

    Dorothy,
    You do make me feel better, and I’m so pleased I’m not the only impatient one, though waiting for things is surely…a good excercise!
    Hope you ok snow wise?
    I’m off to try and safely get home
    Love to you,
    Claire xx

  65. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:38 pm -  Reply

    Janice and Kathleen,
    Hello you two, forgive me popping you together, but surely our qvc link aids friendship! Really appreciate your replies, Golly I must get festive Janice, you wishing me a Merry Ghristmas has jolted me…again!!!
    Funny how I’m here bossing all of you around re Christmas and yet….Not one bit done myself…Perhaps a tree may help!!! There you go Kathleen….positivity, so Thank you!
    Love to you , and Happy Christmas too…
    Oh gosh I said it! C x

  66. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:40 pm -  Reply

    Oh Morag,
    Believe me the bubbles WERE certainly fizzing last Thursday as Ali K, Debbie and I attended Lola Rose’s 10th celebrations! More importantly though the gentle effervescing of my own! How lovely to hear from you too, I hope all’s well?
    Much love Claire x

  67. claire sutton December 2, 2010 at 5:46 pm -  Reply

    Hi David,
    You were such a sweetie sending those in, and yes a definate smile , although I had to check to see if I WERE December or not!! Funnily enough those fishnets usually cause a stir…but I too not convinced against the purple dress!
    The nails, you’re competing with us aren’t you, but seriously thank you for being so thoughtful and sending on the polishes, lovely of you.
    So this blog land I will have to say bye for tonight too, and speak soon,
    Lots of love Claire xxx

  68. tracy December 2, 2010 at 10:20 pm -  Reply

    hi claire,
    great to have you back. am glad you are getting there shall we say as we all know it takes time and it is one of the most hectic things you will ever do in your life they say moving house never mind re building a house so it is going to take its toll on you its normal and with it going on for so long it will take the wind out of your sails but sounds like you are getting your second wind now which is great and i wish you every happiness in your new home.
    may i also take this opportunity to wish you and your family a merry christmas and a happy new year. may all your wishes come true.
    tracy

  69. Gail December 4, 2010 at 8:26 pm -  Reply

    Dear Claire, how wonderful to receive so many replies. I’m just a bit scared that replying to them all is yet another thing added to your long list of things to do, but all the lovely, caring replies show how much you are thought of and how, at some time or another, we have all been in your shoes (so to speak). Take care and, like so many, glad you are back with us. I know you have a lovely family because I remember when you had an anniversary on the show and there was a lovely photo of the family on the table. Lovely, beautiful children – husband’s not bad either!! You take care. Sent with love, Gail xx

  70. claire sutton December 6, 2010 at 8:32 am -  Reply

    Tracey and Gail,
    Morning.To be honest Gail, it really lifts my spirits and all of you are so personal and kind, so I want to say Hello back properly!!! Husband Dan will smile when I tell him your comment, though my darling Maddie has such a tooth problem, I’m really having to focus this morning as I’m desperate to be home sorting it out…….hard….and feeling sad. As Dan said I can’t do anything till her appt so…..Tracey, I’m enjoying the second wind, and appreciating the house so much more now, so big thank you to you both!!!
    Love Claire xxx

  71. mary morphy December 8, 2010 at 8:45 am -  Reply

    Hi Claire and welcome back! I have really missed your blog and apologise for a delayed response but I have had a nasty bout of laryngitis for two weeks – Christmas come early for my husband and children as totally unable to speak- and now have bronchitis which has resulted in us having to cancel this weekends trip to London. We had planned to take the kids to Winter Wonderland at Hyde Park and have got tickets for Oliver but hoping to re book and move hotel dates for January as it is my husband and daughter’s birthdays. I got very upset about it but the kids were really cool and said they just wanted me to get better. Feeling very sorry for myself but there is always someone worse off than me and I was cheered by your house news and sorry/glad to hear that you have fought and succeeded in fighting your own mini battle. The hall sounds like it’s is going to be fabulous and in my opinion a huge glass window is begging for reams of luxurious fabric draping and folding in huge soft pleats! I am so glad you are back with us, enjoy your new creative projects and looking forward to pictures. By the way, is the lovely Gino as good looking in the flesh as he is on the telly….silly question i think!! Much love and best wishes Mary x

  72. Susan December 11, 2010 at 2:22 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    Thank you for your lovely reply and I just wanted to say I hope you do not feel guilty for paring down this year as you say. There will be plenty of love and fun times had in your house and the kiddies will adore that in itself no doubt! Hope yu’ve been ok in the snow and ice and thankfully nearly all gone!!
    Enjoy your weekend.
    Susan x

  73. Sylvia December 18, 2010 at 2:11 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    I just wanted to wish You,Dan and All your lovely family A Very Happy Christmas and a Prosperous New Year.x

  74. Keith December 27, 2010 at 9:52 am -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    Hope you are well & had a wonderful Christmas! It all seems so long ago now. I’m back at work this week, just like you.
    Hope you have a fantastic New Year when it comes. Here’s to a new start in your lovely new house!
    I’m looking forward to seeing you on QVC – you always look amazing!
    Cheers, Keith.

  75. Julie PLuck January 4, 2011 at 6:47 pm -  Reply

    Hi Claire,
    It is so good to see you back to your usual bubbly self.
    I have lived with depression on and off for years, so I know that it is not easy when you feel down and don’t know what is wrong.
    You cheered me up 2 years ago when I broke one ankle at the same time your mum broke two…..now it is my turn….
    Well done for coming through the down days to look forward to a bright future. All the best for 2011…..Jules

  76. Gill January 4, 2011 at 8:14 pm -  Reply

    Hey Claire…the greeny greyey duck eggy thing is a nightmare! My son had similar problems, but good old Laura Ashley came up trumps.
    Actually, the longer you are in a mess the more you get used to it, after all it saves on a lot of cleaning (why bother?) you don’t use what you can’t get at (do you need it?). Years ago we moved into a house needing total renovation and had old badly fitting curtains, bare floorboards, a microwave and a kettle (no sink, just a manky wash basin) and after 6 months were really used to the freedom of just keeping the hygiene things hygienic and nothing else. When it eventually came to the days of “DON’t pull the expensive new curtains like that, DON’t tread on the expensive cream carpet with shoes on WIPE the granite worktop as soon as you spill water?????…… do we live to make a home or make a home to live?
    Best wishes anyway chin up, chest out, fix your lipe to each side of your ears – you’ll be fine
    Gill

  77. Emily Winter January 6, 2011 at 7:27 am -  Reply

    Hi Claire ,Thank you for your honesty and I know myself how hard it is to say sometimes I need help to feel different and how scary it is to take the advice.
    But you did it ,good for you.
    Moving home with young children is hard and especially when your home is in bits .But from experience I know you will reap the benefits many times over later on.
    My own boys ,now grown men still remember living in a building site which was our home for a long time .But the results were wonderful and all to the good.Plus it shows them that it doesn’t just all arrive on your lap.
    As mothers we expect such a lot from ourselves, working hard ,school run and all the juggling a family life takes.Plus providing everything for everyone.
    You are an inspiration and make me howl laughing at your presentations some days.
    I think women are too hard on themselves.So Claire be kind to yourself as you are to others in fact.
    You will look back and know how much you have learned about you later.
    Glad you are back with your cheery happy self. I just enjoy when Pippa ,Julia and you are on ,makes my day brighter .Thank you take care .Emily Winter

  78. Jo January 11, 2011 at 9:14 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire, Saw you on air on Monday (10 Jan). You looked radiant. Just wondered if you were still using the Laura Geller blusher in apricot? Let me know your secret if you are using something new! Hope things are a bit more settled for you. You are an inspiration to a lot of us, always look immaculate and always smiling. Lots of love Jo x

  79. helen evans February 10, 2011 at 12:22 am -  Reply

    hi claire, i have often been told that i have a similar personality to you! I too am bubbly, and always smiling….. but sometimes the reality inside does not match the outside. It is so refreshing and a real credit to your inate honesty that you have revealed the reasons for your depression. I am a nurse, who deals with people from all walks of life, believe me when I say it can happen to ANYONE! You are not alone Claire. People are facing tough and uncertain times, now more than ever….. and I am seeing more people sucumb to this illness mainly through the stresses of everyday living. Claire thank you for being so honest and fortright. Your actions will stike a chord with many who are in the same boat. I have watched you for several years on qvc and ALWAYS thought what a geniuine, thoroughly likable person you were….. your latest and may i add most important blog has just confirmed that thought. The best of luck and love to you and your family Claire, xxxxxxxxxxxx

  80. sylvia May 18, 2011 at 10:19 am -  Reply

    Hi Claire
    Please can we get an up-dated blog showing some piccies of your lovely new house and garden and of course your chandelier if its up yet! Glad you seem better now Claire.
    Take Care x

  81. Diane June 23, 2011 at 4:39 pm -  Reply

    Hello Claire, Diane here (Holland in common:->)I am sorry you have been low, it’s not easy juggling family life whilst renovating on such a grand scale…the house really does sound wonderful though and I am sure before long you will be feeling it was all worth it for all the family.
    You certainly don’t look as though you have lost your sparkle but sometimes putting a brave face on can be difficult, I am so glad you have found something that has helped you, we are only human and shouldn’t be too hard on ourselves.
    All the best to you & yours and to enjoying your New Home. x

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