Alison Keenan

Moving on…

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What a lovely response to last week’s blog! Colin brought me a cup of tea in bed on Monday morning and found me smiling as I read through all your lovely messages. Interesting to see that so many of us share the choice of most fancied film idols, and nice to hear what your all time movie favourites were too. As always I’m sending love to those who are struggling with things at present, and please know that the whole Army is here for you. Jilly if you get a moment, do let us know all is well with Annie and her husband as you have been on my mind.. It was a joy though to share your memories of the arrival of your children and grandchildren…
I was talking to my mum recently and she reminded me that she was with me when I had the scan of Jack at the hospital. The room was so small she could only hold my toe rather than my hand, but at least she got to see him when he was a reasonable size!

I also wanted to thank those of you who tweet (@alikqvc) and commented on the article I wrote for Breast Cancer Care’s Vita magazine. In case you didn’t see, it was a follow-up to the piece I wrote after the Fashion Show in 2012, if you’d like to read it, click here. What you will realise if you do, is that it was written back in September before I had my final reconstruction in October, and although the left side worked well, because of the radiotherapy and compromised blood supply, the right side sadly failed. This rarely happens, and having heard from so many of you over the years, I know that this surgery is often 100% successful : )

What I hadn’t wanted to mention to you was the fact that my right breast wouldn’t heal. My local surgery has been very kind and I’ve become pretty proficient at changing my own dressings, but endless antibiotics took their toll, and my poor tummy didn’t like them at all! Just before Christmas I saw my surgeon again who cut the dead tissue away in the hope it would heal over the hole, but with nothing in the centre but implant, it didn’t. It was decided last week that my only option would be to would be to remove the implant and stitch up the hole, giving me my best chance to heal fully.

Of course this has left me completely flat on the right side… I know some women prefer this option and are comfortable with a prosthesis, but if I’m honest this was the one thing ever since my diagnosis I have fought so hard to avoid… I know that having a ‘shape’ makes me feel more feminine and like my old self, and without the implant I feel ‘empty’ if that makes sense… Colin continues to be totally supportive and understanding, along with my surgeon, who has suggested we try an expander implant once I am fully better, so there’s always hope : )

I hope this doesn’t come across as a whinge, it’s just that I had wanted this to be a year without surgery so that I could concentrate all my efforts on my daughter, her baby and my wedding… I have my first dress fitting on April 10th… But when I read that back I feel churlish as I AM still able to look forward to these precious times, when too many of my friends and colleagues no longer can…

Seriously, I’m on the mend already, but just need to rest up. It won’t be too long before I’ll be back with you and doing what I love so much – working here!

If you missed my Antthony Designs show last Saturday I thought you may like to see this, because it made me laugh, and it’s nice to end the blog with a smile : )

Take care and if you have the time, it would be good to hear from you.

With my love as always,

Ali xxxx

 

 

156 Comments

  1. Maria February 6, 2015 at 11:19 am -  Reply

    thank you so much for the update, I love and respect how honest you are. I, and am sure all QVC viewers hate to hear you’re in pain as you’ve been through so much but glad you’re on the mend. Just hope it heals and you can look forward to the rest of the year! :)
    Because of you, I’ve heard about the breast cancer care pink ribbon walk and will be doing the Oxfordshire 20 mile walk this year. I’ve had scares myself (Breast lumps, pre cancerous cervical cells and most recently swollen lymph nodes) I know how hard cancer specialists work and how strong people have to be so wanted to do my small bit to help. I wouldn’t have known about this walk if it wasn’t for you and your fearless fight, I hope my donation helps. Stay strong and hope you enjoy wedding planning! X

  2. Teresa Lane February 6, 2015 at 12:06 pm -  Reply

    Morning Ali, you poor thing you really have been in the wars over the last few years. I can’t imagine what you have been feeling but you are always so cheerful if people meet you they would never know there is anything wrong.
    Get well soon and keep warm. Love Terry xxx

  3. Amelia Sutherland February 6, 2015 at 12:09 pm -  Reply

    Hello Alison hope you are feeling better,and no I didn’t take your blog as a moan sometimes you just need to say how you feel.I just want to wish you well and hope every thing goes well in the future for you and all your big family events you have coming up.

  4. Debz February 6, 2015 at 12:14 pm -  Reply

    Hi there Ali

    I am so sorry to hear about you latest setback. You are not whinging or being churlish at all. I can totally understand you feeling ‘empty’ it’s like only half of your body is whole. I would feel exactly the same if it were me.

    I’m glad Colin is helping you through all this, I would expect nothing less from such a remarkable man. I do hope that you can now heal properly and will pray that the other type of implant will work for you as I know what it means to how you feel about yourself to look ‘normal’

    Am sending you all the love in the world and just wish I could be there to hold your hand. You take care of yourself my lovely, rest up and hopefully we’ll soon see you back where you belong. After all, who else could have dealt with Antthony’s faux par with such grace and diplomacy!

    Take care sweetheart. Will be thinking of you.

    Lots of love and extra special fishy licks.

    Debz & Ainzley (=^-^=) xxxxxxxx

  5. Annette Falinski February 6, 2015 at 12:32 pm -  Reply

    Ali. Quite simply you are a brave and inspirational woman and I couldn’t wish for more than for you to be as well as can be and for you to catch a break. you are so strong for everyone, and it is incredible how you continue to share your journey with others with the hope that your problems will help others. what a lovely lady you are. wishing you and your wonderful supportive family all the very best xx

  6. Helen Wallington February 6, 2015 at 12:42 pm -  Reply

    Alison I am sorely missing your presence on screen because for years now I have aspired to be like you. You’re such a charming graceful lady, so polished and always elegant. I don’t think you are complaining about your battle whatsoever. Nowadays, society expects us to be so strong and always cheerful to avoid pulling others down no matter what ails us, but when someone asks us how we are, it’s so predictable to hear a blanket statement in reply. I’d much rather hear the absolute truth and I really hope you get better soon. Xxx

  7. Lesley February 6, 2015 at 12:47 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison you have been through so much but, always
    Have a smile on your face. A true inspiration to others who are going through the same. Much love and best wishes from Lesley xx

  8. Heather Blaber February 6, 2015 at 12:53 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali

    Just want to wish you all the best with your “fitting”. You’ve had a rough time of it, but lets hope this year will be a happy, healthier one for you.

    Take care

    Best wishes

    Heather

  9. Paula Hinks February 6, 2015 at 2:08 pm -  Reply

    Oh Ali. I have just read your blog. You are my favourite presenter by a mile as you are so real, funny, warm and have such a sunny disposition. I was watching a recent outerwear clearance show that you did with Glen Campbell and the pair of you made me laugh so much. It is incredible, then, when i read what you have just posted about the implant. I am so sorry to hear that it has not worked at this stage but let’s hope that there will be options later on. You really are a beautiful woman inside and out and clearly a very brave one. I wish you all the very best.

  10. Elaine sallis February 6, 2015 at 2:38 pm -  Reply

    Ali
    I am so sorry to hear that you have had to have more surgery. What a blow for you. But you still have so much to look forward to so try and keep positive. My mother in law was taken to hospital yesterday. She has had a heart attack. She is ninety so fingers crossed all will be ok. Jodie’s baby is due on Tuesday. Will let you know what I can. I will be thinking of you. Love elaine

  11. Diana February 6, 2015 at 3:03 pm -  Reply

    Wondered where you were. Especially on this Friday Jewellery Sale Day. Managed to find your details and news, not have done this before, a bit new to this IPad and endless possibilities!!! Anyway, having heard a Presenter comment on the fact that you were “doing well” was concerned that all has not been well. So really hope, all will be well now. Especially with your Daughter’s news, AND your Wedding? How lovely that will be and so much to look forward to and a goal to aim for. Meanwhile, take care. Very best of Wishes, Diana.

  12. Ann burns February 6, 2015 at 3:14 pm -  Reply

    Dear Ali I am so sorry to hear of your latest trauma God u are really going through it I am an avid fan of yours for years I have never written before I have been with qvc for 15or more years I have only phoned once and that was to you marcel ducker was on that’s along time ago I just want to say u are an inspiration to us all beautiful inside and out I will continue to include you in my prayers and wish you all the best for a speedy recovery and looking forward to seeing you back on the screen take care all the very best to you Colin and family
    Ann

  13. Jill DowdingWalker February 6, 2015 at 3:23 pm -  Reply

    Ah darling Ali – so glad you are still here with us, still progressing, still laughing! So sorry you have had to be going through this very difficult time of hard decisions, but you know what? You can now concentrate on healing from this last operation, knowing that your skin and tissues are binding together with strength and unity! As you say, there is always the option of an expanding programme once you are fully healed. In the meantime, it is inherently YOU who is a beautiful woman, your caring personality, your wit and wisdom that make you the joy you are to others! I always keep you and yours in my prayers! I was watching that show with Antthony when he used an American expression! So funny and so lovely to watch and hear the pair of you laughing – I was laughing along with you both! x x x

  14. Kim February 6, 2015 at 3:49 pm -  Reply

    Ali just wanted to send you lots of love and hugs. Take care and remember we all love and are so proud of you. That grandchild of yours will be one lucky baby, which no doubt s/he will realise! xx

  15. Alpa February 6, 2015 at 4:06 pm -  Reply

    My Dear Ali,

    A very happy belated New Year to you and Ali’s Army! :) Thank you for sharing Lucy’s precious scan with us on your last blog. I’m so sorry your right breast wouldn’t heal and reconstruction on the right side failed. Please don’t think that you ever whinge because it is simply not true and you are certainly not churlish. You have so many wonderful qualities and your unfailing kindness and love and appreciation of life always shines through. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I did send you an email yesterday.

    I’m sorry I’ve not written for some time. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated significantly over the last few months. There is nothing I can do about it and I hadn’t wanted to mention it here. I am still trying to get treatment for the things that can be treated. There are also on going issues that can not be ignored and have not been resolved, even after a number of years!

    Debz, I’m sorry Neal is going through such a rough time at work. It is exhausting to keep up being jolly all the time. I am thankful Neal has you to support him. Glad that your hair is starting to grow back slowly. I hope that the beta blockers are helping with your heart palpitations. I see I’m in good company after also finding sticky blue pads on my person after an ECG. If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know. Lots of love to you and Neal and a special stroke for dear Ainzley x

    Tricia, I’m so sorry for all you have been through. I hope you can try and be patient and kind to yourself. Sending you and Jan my love x

    Jilly, I hope Annie is as well as possible. I also hope her hubbie is recovering from the infection he had. Thinking of you and my love to you and Annie x

    Love to all in Ali’s Army x

    Ali, I hope you are resting up and letting yourself be looked after by the lovely Colin.

    Take care,
    Lots of Love, Alpa xxx

  16. Rhona fenton February 6, 2015 at 4:23 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison just read your new blog what can I say but you have had a time off it again for sure! sorry to hear how things have turned out for you and the end result was not what you had hoped for :( as you say you have a lot to look forward to which I can only hope helps you to deal with this and how you are feeling, the new baby and your wedding to colin who I might add loves you for you and that’s all that matters to him is having you here with him to share your life together through the good and the bad, I have to tell you a funny story to which I hope this will give you and colin a laugh? remember I wrote and told you about my sister-in-law Alison same name, and how she has been through all this also? had to have both removed but didn’t want surgery to rebuild and like yourself was still very young but didn’t want surgery but used to joke around to help matters by saying no I am happy with my chicken fillets as she used to say and I can be any size I want to!! but the best laugh with her, when it came to bed time she used to turn round to her husband and say now if you are in the mood tonight and fancy a feel they are hanging over there on the back of the chair because am working early tomorrow so am off to sleep!! well let me tell you Alison we couldn’t do anything for laughing I think it might have been the way she told the story :) theres one for you and your colin to have a chuckle at!! joking a side Alison you are an amazing beautiful women and no matter what you always will be because you are you and you have your health and that’s what matters, so keep strong and look forward to all the good things that are ahead:) sending you all our love as always to you all Rhona xx

  17. Joanna Downey February 6, 2015 at 4:28 pm -  Reply

    Dearest girl. You are not, and never could be, churlish just so very unfortunate to still be experiencing difficulties four years after you went through the most awful ordeal imaginable. Your bravery, grace and humour – VERY evident from that delightful clip with Antthony – shine out and you know how much you mean to all of us. Of course you wanted this to be a year without surgery, who wouldn’t? So I truly hope any future procedure will be far less debilitating than the others you have had. As always I send you blue skies and sunshine, love from Jo x

  18. Ann Carroll February 6, 2015 at 5:39 pm -  Reply

    Hope you heal quickly! I’m sure your daughter is just so grateful that your here for her and your grandchild! Good luck and congratulations on your wedding xxx

  19. Jan February 6, 2015 at 5:48 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali

    Keep thinking positive and think of all those lovely things this year.

    Just had to say something – will pray for you.

    Jan

  20. Bev February 6, 2015 at 5:48 pm -  Reply

    Ali , you are so special in the way you always think of others xxx no one would ever accuse you of whinging x you are a stunningly beautiful person -both on the outside and from within xxx much love
    Bevs ️x

  21. Janet Jones February 6, 2015 at 6:47 pm -  Reply

    My Dear Ali, I am so sorry you have started the new year with more surgery. I will keep my fingers crossed for you , that when you are fully healed the expander implant will be an option for you. Glad to hear you are on the mend, and as always you have the love and support of the lovely Colin.
    As you say you have a new grandchild to look forward to( did I mention I am a Grandma lol) and a wedding to the love of your life, you have many things to look forward to, but I do understand how disappointed you must be. Just remember you are a beautiful person inside and out.
    I had a lovely birthday weekend ,I was spoiled with some lovely gifts and time with my family.We had a lovely meal and Alfie was as good as gold, though he was full of cold and these last couple of months he has had a horrible yellow discharge from his eyes and a stye, some of this can be a side effect from the eye drops he has to use. He has a appointment at the end of the month at the hospital, so hopefully they will be able to help ease the side effects.
    After we dropped them off we went to see Phoenix Nights with Peter Kay. It was very funny, we were sat high up and I am not very good with heights, but it did not spoil the evening.
    I am still looking for this elusive part time job, and living out in the sticks makes it that bit more difficult. I have been helping out at Cancer Research a bit more, so they are very happy with me.
    Well I think that’s all my news for now, take care of yourself Ali and while you are healing flick through the baby and wedding mags it will put a smile on your face.
    Jilly hope all well with you and your family
    Speak soon Ali love Janet xxx

  22. Lyn February 6, 2015 at 8:16 pm -  Reply

    Dear ali, A great blog once again. Hope that you are feeling better, keep your spirits up as You always seem to do. Things do not seem to get better health wise in my family but I am sure they will (God willing) soon. You must be getting excited with all that you have to look forward to in a few months time what with the baby and your wedding. Hope to see you on qv soon. love Lyn.xxxxx

  23. Pauline wilson February 6, 2015 at 8:29 pm -  Reply

    Oh Ali you are an inspiration have been with QVC for many years I love to read your true to life blogs take care, stay we’ll always and have the most fabulous wedding ever. Colin certainly sounds like the man of your dreams. X

  24. pauline February 6, 2015 at 8:33 pm -  Reply

    Alison you are not a winger(is there such a word)? , I suffer from a medical condition which causes constant chronic pain and like you I have A very supportive partner but there are days I just need a good cry and allow myself to feel sad about my problems,so I totally get where you are, you come across as a lovely lady.

  25. Barbara thorold February 6, 2015 at 8:47 pm -  Reply

    Well done Ali for being so positive. You are an inspiration to us all. Get well soon

  26. haron February 6, 2015 at 9:10 pm -  Reply

    Just brilliant! thanks and take care x x x x

  27. Sharon February 6, 2015 at 9:11 pm -  Reply

    My name is Sharon by the way not haron… I was too busy laughing to type properly!!! x

  28. mark cosgriff February 7, 2015 at 12:29 am -  Reply

    We are very proud of you and think you are an inspiration, keep up the fight and get well soon , Mark and Lynda xxx

  29. TINA S February 7, 2015 at 12:30 am -  Reply

    Hi Ali,
    I am so sorry to hear of your health worries again. You are by no means a whinger at are all. You only have to see by the number of people who follow your blog to see how admired you are. How you keep positive with all the things that life has thrown at you is amazing. I know I would not be so positive and be able to carry on the way you have. I have been suffering from depression for a while now and went for counselling. One of the things I said was , I have no right to feel this way when I look around at how other people have to cope with terrible things. (At the time the PARA Olympics had just started). I would watch these people with such disabilities and being able to compete in these fantastic games. I felt so ashamed of myself for feeling the way I did. But my counsellor told said to me “why should you feel ashamed” . She made me see I was being too hard on myself and that I shouldn’t think that way. She made me see a lot of things about myself. I think we are often the hardest judge of ourselves and not others. So you should realise you are greatly admired, and who can blame you if you feel as if you need a little moan, why not with all what you have endured! I hope I’m making some sense to you and not prattling on!
    We are human after all. I think we all moan about things and then think oh I’ve got nothing to moan about, like you said you feel churlish. But we are allowed to feel like this when we have had to cope with certain things . We shouldn’t beat ourselves up about it. My counsellor was more or less giving me permission to feel the way I did and not to feel guilty.
    Anyway, enough of my prattling. You are a marvellous example of coming through the other side after facing such adversity and you are admired by many.Though it seems as though it will never end. You will come through it soon.
    You will have a fantastic year with your wedding on the horizon and becoming a grandmother for the first time, what joy.
    Love and best wishes, Tina S. ( Where it is still very cold in S. Wales.) xx

  30. monica jackson February 7, 2015 at 8:24 am -  Reply

    Lovely to read your blog Allison you are such an inspiration .I gave my daughter your lovely necklace which you designed .SHE LOVES IT .She is a chemo sister at the hospital and she is always like you always happy and positive .Good luck with the family.

  31. julie February 7, 2015 at 10:32 am -  Reply

    Hey Ali,

    Lovely to here from you, I love reading your blog you do make me smile and are so generous with the news you share with us. I am however sorry to here about the problems you are having with your reconstruction, and you are not winging – blimey and if you were you have good reason on this one occasion!!!! xxx. I can totally relate to how you feel and what you write – its just a moment and you have proven that you are a strong no nonsense lady and will cope with this little set back beautifully as you seem to have always done, don’t let this take the focus away from all the wonderful things that are happening to you and your family this coming year.

    Im getting much better and life in starting to return back to what my normal will now be (I hope you remember me). My hair is growing back although at the moment I look like a GI, and its very dark, I was blonde before!!! Both times I have had cancer my hair has changed colour so ill see what I end up with in a few more months this time.

    Like you I had hoped to be op free this year but I just can’t get that break at the min gggrrrrrrr. I have fluid collecting in my chest and around my left lung which is causing problems with breathing especially when lying down. I had it drained away in Dec but it came back, so three weeks ago I went in to hospital to have it drained again and then an op to have the gaps where its collecting stuck back together. I am hoping this has worked now and my oncologist is hopeful that it will.

    So in the meantime I keep taking the pills, looking after myself, getting out and about and keeping active, working at Global Radio with some exciting things going on and getting on with MY LIFE and not thinking about the ifs and buts of what might be or might happen.

    You are as ever a supportive, and real lady who people can relate too when times are hard and when there not and I look forward to seeing you back at work.

    You take care of yourself

    Julie xxxx

  32. Margaret Upton February 7, 2015 at 10:57 am -  Reply

    I have just received your letter on my e mail and tried to reply but it didn’t work! I just wanted to say you are allowed to feel sad fed up and whatever other feeling you have, we all try to be grateful our arms and legs work and that we can see etc but that only works some of the time not all of the time. I know exactly what you mean by saying you want your shape,especially after always having such a nice shape and looking so good, which you still do, I saw you briefly in the ladies talking to Sarah at the Beauty Bash, I’d just had a Judith Williams cleanse, you looked so well after everything you have been through and you are very elegant and slim. You are not churlish at all just human.

    Kindest regards,
    Maggie Upton

  33. twinkle February 7, 2015 at 11:21 am -  Reply

    Darling Ali

    I have tears in my eyes as I write this partly because I am so sad for u and just want to come and give u a hug, but also because u are SO brave, your positivity during this difficult time is so inspiring. You are one AMAZING lady.

    I know this recent surgery isn’t what u wanted and I understand how hard this is for u, but I know u will be OK because u are beautiful u are amazing and u have the best husband to be ever ( Colin u are a lovely man your support for Ali is so wonderful it melts my heart seeing u together and what u get up to – they will defiently be tears from me on your wedding day even tho Im not there xx u keep on being amazing and keep bringing us your wonderful music xx ) and amazing kids, family and friends ( and your Alis army who u inspire everyday )

    Ali u are a true inspiration to so many people as u know I am going through a totally different situation myself but your positivity and love of life keeps me going and inspires me to keep going when ever times are rough – so thank you u should feel so proud of yourself, sharing your story is hard but its helped so mant people – U should do a seperate blog adding all the bits from your journey from here so it can reach even more people as I know it would help them :)

    Ali u are my shining star, u are gorgeous, amazing, inspiring and I love ya lots

    stay strong, rest up and keep in touch

    sending love hugs and glitter like always

    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  34. Mary Morphy February 7, 2015 at 1:09 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali..I hope you are feeling a little better each day and that you are soon back on screen looking fabulous as you always do. Have you had snow? we have had none in Westgate but it was jolly cold on the beach thus morning..double moisturiser and face oil needed!!Your  blog made me feel very humbled; as a woman who’s been battling with her weight since childhood ( unfortunately all of us daughters have inherited our more curvy bodies from my dads side..all his sisters and his mum were very curvy ladies) been at various slimming clubs, my own choice since 14 years of age I have major hangups and insecurities which do affect me however I have been blessed not to have been subjected to the horrible cancer that many people endure and which ultimately changes their bodied with no choice in the matter. You have been gracious and accepting of your circumstances and shared them with us without a whinge or wanting pity..I must take a hard look at how lucky I am and move on focusing on how lucky I am and deal with it!! I hope you managed to read my last blog..it was one of tge last..it was s bonkers busy week and intentions of replying sooner were scuppered with taxi driving for two kids and a husband who has a broken elbow!! off to cricket practice now with my daughter, a two hour round trip then tea duty st mums then taking freshly showered daughter to her friends for s sleepover..I hope, unlike me, you have your feet up this bright and breezy Saturday and are being waited on hand and foot.

  35. Romola Mitchell February 7, 2015 at 2:11 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison, Have just read your latest blog and wanted to send you all my love and best wishes for the future. I always enjoy watching your shows, particularly the diamonique ones, and have been inspired to buy far more than I should! I have been with QVC for about eight years now but you are my favourite female presenter. I really enjoy your laughter and your fun personality but know that you are also a very classy, intelligent and beautiful lady. I know that you have gone through so much already but this is just the final hurdle which, because of all the wonderful support you are being given by Colin and your family and friends, I know you will jump with flying colours. The end IS in sight and you can now look forward to becoming a bride and a Grandmother this year.
    Look after yourself and Ilook forward to seeing you on QVC very soon.

    With love,

    Romola

  36. julie February 7, 2015 at 5:23 pm -  Reply

    Hey Ali,

    Lovely to here from you, I love reading your blog you do make me smile and are so generous with the news you share with us. I am however sorry to here about the problems you are having with your reconstruction, and you are not winging – blimey and if you were you have good reason on this one occasion!!!! xxx. I can totally relate to how you feel and what you write – its just a moment and you have proven that you are a strong no nonsense lady and will cope with this little set back beautifully as you seem to have always done, don’t let this take the focus away from all the wonderful things that are happening to you and your family this coming year.

    Im getting much better and life in starting to return back to what my normal will now be (I hope you remember me). My hair is growing back although at the moment I look like a GI, and its very dark, I was blonde before!!! Both times I have had cancer my hair has changed colour so ill see what I end up with in a few more months this time.

    Like you I had hoped to be op free this year but I just can’t get that break at the min gggrrrrrrr. I have fluid collecting in my chest and around my left lung which is causing problems with breathing especially when lying down. I had it drained away in Dec but it came back, so three weeks ago I went in to hospital to have it drained again and then an op to have the gaps where its collecting stuck back together. I am hoping this has worked now and my oncologist is hopeful that it will.

    So in the meantime I keep taking the pills, looking after myself, getting out and about and keeping active, working at Global Radio with some exciting things going on and getting on with MY LIFE and not thinking about the ifs and buts of what might be or might happen.

    You are as ever a supportive, and real lady who people can relate too when times are hard and when there not and I look forward to seeing you back at work.

    You take care of yourself

    Julie xx

  37. Sue Radford February 7, 2015 at 5:38 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali,

    I’m so sorry to hear your last operation wasn’t a success, and you’ve been feeling poorly and disappointed with the outcome. Ali, I can understand how you must be feeling, but please remember Colin is the lucky man to have you in his life, and he loves you Just the way you are. Please try and focus more on your forthcoming wedding, and of course the new arrival of your beautiful little granddaughter or grandson. No matter what the outcome Ali, the precious new addition to your family will have a wonderful and inspirational Grandmother. Such a coincidence you said you might like to be called Nanny Ali, as I’m called Nanny Sue! I hope you will soon feel much better. Take care Ali, and as always I will continue to send positive vibes along with the rest of Ali’s Army. Hope Alpa is okay too.

    Love Sue Radford xx

  38. Jan February 7, 2015 at 6:00 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali
    Hope you are recovering well. Although I follow you on Twitter, somehow 140 characters isn’t always enough to say what you want to. Your courage & positivity after all you have faced in the last 4 years never ceases to amaze me. Far from whinging, I admire how you deal so well with the setbacks you’ve had. I get the impression you’re a ‘glass half full’ girl & sure that helps. I hope I never go through what you have but I’d like to think your example would help me cope. It’s good to know you have such wonderful support from Colin (what a diamond geezer!) and your lovely family & friends. It’s such an exciting year for you & I look forward to reading about your forthcoming grandparenthood & wedding. I just know you’ll make a stunning bride because your beauty comes from within. Take care & I look forward to seeing you back on our screens very soon.
    Lots of love
    Jan xxx

  39. Judith LennonJ February 7, 2015 at 9:14 pm -  Reply

    Dearest Ali. What can I say? I am so sorry that yet again you are having a “rough time”. I am sure that your surgeon has given you the best possible answers and treatments for this latest episode. Be strong you have so much going for you and to look forward to this year so hang on to those thoughts. You are constantly in my thoughts and I know how much you find the comments from Ali’s Army such a help. I know everyone will be behind you on this one too. Take plenty od rest and you will soon be feeling better lovely lady. Just think that Lucy will need her Mum and you will need your strength to help her. Love and hugs for now. Judith

  40. Sue Dunford February 7, 2015 at 9:35 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali, just read your blog and just wanted to wish you all the very best with your recovery. You are such a wonderful inspiration to all of us as you keep wonderfully cheerfull ( although you must have down times naturally) Can’t wait to see you back on QVC as I always enjoy everything you present. Much love Sue D

  41. christine February 7, 2015 at 10:00 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali
    I not blogged for a while but I just felt to reply to you as you face this real blow to your healing.. I am remembering you as always in my prayers and I smiled as you finished your blog “on a laugh”.. that s my mantra too.. your blessings seem to be outweighing your struggles as I see it…

    I too had a rare tumour that needed sorting 10 years ago now and in the interim, lost 2 friends to the same conditiont. My friend was only 40 and left a little boy.. I on the other hand have been truly blessed with 4 grandchildren in that time.. my son s marriage ended sadly, but years later after , he met a lovely girl and they now have two girls,, our other son blessed us with 2 sons.. they are the lights in my life . My body suffered in many ways and I cried when I saw what they d done to me!!

    But reading how things have been changing in your life, through love, our most powerful healer, it blesses and encourages me..

    only yesterday I was at a friends Big birhday, I was amazed to see one of the consultants there who had helped me, she is one of my friends closest friends and I had no idea!!! She recognised me.. must be the decleor Ali !!! Quite obviously i ve not changed much in all that time.. She said that it had inspired her seeing me and that I was a miracle!!

    Can you imagine, I was blown away and just felt truly truly blessed in so many ways..

    My dear Ali, seize every day and give thanks in all things as I am.. You have so many special moments to savour and your precious grandchild who ll melt your heart and melt any cares away.. will soon be here to give the best of cuddles as mine do..

    I send you the biggest of hugs and lots of love.. I found eating plenty of chicken and good wound healing foods helped and laughter is a great healer, even a few tears where necessary..

    Take good care Ali and may knowing you are loved help you along the way.. You ve helped me many times, like ripples on a lake , far reaching though we ve never met and I pray I help you too…

    with lots of love to you and all your lovely family, xsure your boys give hugs like mine do to me!!! Enjoy…..

    Christine
    xxxxxxxxxxxxx

  42. Sue Huskisson February 7, 2015 at 11:07 pm -  Reply

    Hi again Ali. I’m so sorry that your reconstructive surgery didn’t work out as you would have hoped and I really hope that what your surgeon has suggested does become possible in the future. You certainly didn’t come across as whinging but in my opinion you are so entitled to whinge as much as you like!! I can’t begin to imagine what you’ve gone through these past 4 years but you always manage to be cheerful when we see you on air. You really are an inspiration. Anyway Ali on a happier note, my niece Lisa gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, Charlie, on Jan 29th, the same day I wrote to you before. She went for a scan on that day and it was decided to do a c section as the baby was so big(10 lbs 6 oz) and she had high blood pressure. Anyway it was a happy outcome and Charlie is absolutely gorgeous. Look forward to seeing you back on air soon Ali. Love Sue. X

  43. Hazel pilott February 7, 2015 at 11:53 pm -  Reply

    Oh Ali, what you have been through, and still enduring! You are so brave and must give hope to lots of people. I do so wish you all the best . Have watched QVC almost since it started so feel as if I know you. I send you lots of love and hope , and see you back soon.

  44. Kay Skinner February 8, 2015 at 4:57 pm -  Reply

    Good luck Ali hope 2015 is good to you

    Kay XX

  45. Theresa Hanlon February 8, 2015 at 8:51 pm -  Reply

    Sorry to hear your news Alison but hope in time things get better for you, as you say you lucy and simons baby to look forward too then in june your wedding to colin which i’m sure will be a wonderful day. At thus time i am trying to keep my 10yr old grandaughters Ellice’s spirits up as her mum has as a bad relapse with her ms and is not good plus they mow have to sell their dream home for a bungalow, hope your soon feelin better Alison take care xx

  46. Sandy February 8, 2015 at 9:36 pm -  Reply

    Ali you aare a wonderful inspiration
    Positive and happy

  47. Lynn Hind February 8, 2015 at 11:13 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali so sorry your having a rough ride of it right now, its only natural to feel as you do, how we percieve ourselves is so important, wether it be a hair style,colour of a dress or some other issue, to lose ones breasts must be the ulitmate body image we hold close it shouldnt but it does matter. i do believe every woman handles/deals with this in their own way some are happy to be left and pop in the prosthetics others want the implants to rebuild their feminity but no matter how many say it doesnt matter to YOU it does, so never apologise for wanting that back Ali but please allow the area heal properly and give yourself …time…. colin,your family and friends love you very much as you are hunny they are happy your here to share their lives with them it will be alright in the end you know its just giving it time and patience youll get there lovely lady!
    Love always Lynn xx

  48. Rhona fenton February 9, 2015 at 12:03 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison, meant to say I missed you again on your last blog one before this my fault for being so slow ha ha! I tried to get in early on this blog so my reply is further up the page by the time you read this one you will have read it :) this is to do with your last blog I did add my film choice ha ha but I also wrote letting you know what my niece Emily is having super excited having said that it wouldn’t matter either way, but if you check the end off your last blog Alison I have let you know couldn’t let you wait till June to find out, I wouldn’t do that to you after all I know now! :) love Rhona xx

  49. Linda February 9, 2015 at 12:54 pm -  Reply

    I am so sorry to hear your news Ali my best wishes and get well soon xx you have been through so much good luck Daisy and Teasel send their Love WoofWoof!!xx

  50. Susan February 9, 2015 at 2:57 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali, I’m so sorry you’re having more problems with your surgery. I totally understand how you feel re the flatness but I think it’s sad too. I think society places a lot of pressure on people to look a certain way and of course we’re all different. What you’ve been through is immense and I really hope this year will calm down for you to enjoy the wedding and baby. Love Susan x

  51. Linda Marshall February 9, 2015 at 3:40 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali, I am so sorry that you have had another set back, but with Colin by your side i know that you will come smiling through it all.
    Your forthcoming wedding is another thing to look forward to, and also the birth of your daughters baby.
    Keep on smiling and being the strong person you are.
    love to you and Colin
    Linda xxx

  52. Alpa February 9, 2015 at 8:04 pm -  Reply

    My Dear Ali,

    I wanted to write and let you know you have been very much in my thoughts. I can only imagine how you feel as I have not been in your shoes. Even with the ladies who have been in your situation, the way we experience things is very unique to us. I know from my own experience, that there are no words when you don’t recognize yourself or your life and despite hoping for the best still feel as though you are living in a nightmare. I am so sorry for all the gruelling reconstructive surgery you have been through. I hope that once you have healed from the latest surgery, your surgeon’s suggestion of trying an expander implant is successful.

    Yes, you do have the joy of Lucy’s baby and your own wedding to look forward to but it doesn’t detract from how you are feeling now. Let yourself feel however you feel and just be without any pressure.

    I am glad you have a supportive and understanding surgeon and that Colin is by your side. You are an extraordinary lady and you are very much loved.

    I will write to your properly but this message is just for you :)

    Lots of Love, Alpa xxx

  53. Tricia coulsonwood February 9, 2015 at 11:47 pm -  Reply

    I am shocked to hear of your continuing surgical problems. (Problems ) is such an inadequate word on this occasion.
    You amaze me and every one else as to how do you cope. I was thinking only a few weeks ago that you are so articulate and focus upon all your presentations with such clarity. Now it’s obvious that you’ve had many sleepless nights over this latest disappointment your having to endure. Honestly Ali I ask how do you do it.? . I am a trained nurse and cannot function as you appear to do. My daughter has the capacity to get on with whatever life’s knocks come her way despite all her associated cancer, treatments and bad side effects that she’s been enduring.
    The replies you’ve had from all your army are remarkable, never have I read such outpourings of intelligent, caring and loving messages all aimed towards you. In todays world It makes you feel hope. Alpa always a kind word even when your feeling so poorly.
    Julie working so hard despite her complicated recovery. Jilly
    always something funny and positive to say .
    All I can say is that now you have had the implant removed you should quickly heal, then we all hope and believe you will one
    day soon have your new treatment and reconstructive surgery again.. Take good care Ali love to you and love to everyone, Tricia.

  54. Karen February 10, 2015 at 11:18 am -  Reply

    Hi Ali, you certainly have been through the mill, i truly hope that you are now recovering fully and feeling much better. Lots of positives happening for you and yours this year, and i bet you will be one stunning bride…cannot wait to see those pictures that’s for sure. You are an inspiration! Keep well and look forward to seeing you on Q again really soon. Love and best wishes Karen x

  55. Carol s February 10, 2015 at 1:11 pm -  Reply

    Hi ya alison, hope you are feeling a little bit better now. So sorry you had to have more surgery. I don’t think I know of anyone else quite like you. You always seem to be so happy and thinking of others. Get well soon. Love Carol. X x x ps that clip you showed us was hilarious.

  56. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 1:44 pm -  Reply

    Dear Maria, How lovely to hear from you, and how marvellous to know that through this blog you are going to take part in the Oxfordshire 20 mile walk! That’s a heck of a challenge :) And thank you on behalf of all the other women and some men who struggle with this disease – everything that is raised is so well received I know :) I’ll be honest, this last four months have been a real march, and I’m very glad I have this job , because when I’m in front of the cameras and the show starts I can forget everything else that may be troubling me. You and so many others have inspired me to stay strong and face things, and although this may not be the way I imagined I would look on my wedding day, so be it. Please do keep in touch, and let me know how you get on with the walk – take lots of plasters :) With love Ali xx

  57. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 1:47 pm -  Reply

    Hi there Terry, sitting here in my onesie, doing what you said I should, and that is keeping warm :) Your kind words are much appreciated, and I know I’m not alone in keeping my fears and worries to myself – there are a multitude of you here in The Army, who crack on with life and its problems when others may feel like giving up. I hope life is good with you, and thanks again for writing – these responses have cheered me up no end today :)
    Love Ali x

  58. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 1:49 pm -  Reply

    Dear Amelia – what a beautiful name! I thought of Amy but called my daughter Lucy – I think Amelia would have suited her just as well :) Thanks for writing, and yes, I do have lots of happy family events to come this year, and so I’m concentrating on that. As my surgeon said, allow your body to heal, and deal with the social side of your life, and then we can think about moving forwards… Hope all is well with you, love Ali xx

  59. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 1:54 pm -  Reply

    Debz how good to hear from you, and your kind and understanding words are much appreciated. I am feeling a little better each day physically, and am working on accepting things too – I know you’re there holding my hand, and I am definitely resting up – have even made a start on my book! Colin as you say, is there for me, and always positive. He often talks of where we will retire to when we’re in our 80’s :) So glad you enjoyed Antthony’s faux pas – such a hoot – and such a lovely lovely man. We were still laughing about it in the break – good times . Please give Ainzley a cuddle for me and I’m sending you and Neal my love, Ali xx Keep in touch :)

  60. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 1:55 pm -  Reply

    dear Annette that is very kind of you to say, as I always hope that in sharing things – the good and the bad – it will make this whole process less of a mystery for anyone ever having to go through it. We can deal with all things I believe, if we know what it is we are facing :) With my love, Ali xx

  61. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:03 pm -  Reply

    Helen, bless you heart for saying such a lovely thing. I am hugely flattered :) Its interesting that you say society expects us to be strong and cheerful to avoid pulling others down, and I think in some instances that’s right. For me, I’d depress myself if I constantly thought of ‘what might have been’ or ‘what may still happen’ and I know in the case of family and friends, staying positive no matter what helps them to be brave too :) It has been good for me though, through this blog, to be able to say it how it is this time, and I am incredibly grateful for the endless stream of kind words and supportive messages that carry me through. You’ve made me smile, and I thank you for it. Take care, love Ali xx

  62. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:06 pm -  Reply

    Dear Lesley, thank you for taking the time to write and for your kind words. I am smiling literally while I write this :) Best foot forward and all that – besides if you greet someone with a smile they tend to smile back. Frown and they look away. Have a great week, love Ali xx

  63. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:08 pm -  Reply

    Dear Heather, thank you for your good wishes. Having seen my surgeon this morning, I think it may be a while before I have my ‘fitting’ but I’m already having a look on line and have asked BCC for their assistance in this. I’m sure it’ll be fine, and as soon as I’m feeling better and confidant I’ll be back with you. I hope that this year will be healthy and happy for you too, love Ali xx

  64. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:12 pm -  Reply

    Hi Paula, so glad you enjoyed the show with Glen and I – we also had a hoot during the two hours, and it was exactly what I needed before my surgery the following day. I am feeling a little stronger each day, and having seen the surgeon today, have run through the options that I have available to me. The main thing though is to let my body heal properly this time and so I may have to work around my original ideas for the wedding dress. All that said, nothing will spoil this or the arrival of my grandchild at the end of April. Thanks again for writing to me, love Ali xx

  65. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:13 pm -  Reply

    Dear Elaine how terribly sorry I am to hear about your mother in law. This is a difficult time of year for those in the autumn of their years, and I sincerely hope that she will come through this and recover. Let’s pray that Jodie’s baby arrives on cue, and will give everyone a reason to smile. I’ll look forward to hearing the update! Thanks for your kindness too, love Ali xx

  66. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:16 pm -  Reply

    Hi Diana, yes it was purgatory having to miss Jewellery Day – on top of missing my regular Diamonique hour ! That said, I am constantly in touch with the buyers and will have some special things planned for my return :) I think what I’ve had done is all I can have done for now, but as you say I have SO much to look forward to, I will certainly use those events as my goals. Enjoy your iPad, and please do keep in touch, love Ali xx

  67. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:17 pm -  Reply

    Gosh Ann, reading your comment took me back to Battersea and my early years at QVC! Marcel Drucker – what a sweet man he was – and those watches were beautiful weren’t they?! Thank you for your prayers, and I promise I will keep in touch, and return to work as soon as I’m able, love Ali xx

  68. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:19 pm -  Reply

    Dear Jill, thank you so very much for taking the time to write, and such lovely words too! You are right, and your words were echoed by my surgeon this morning. It is all about the healing, and allowing my body to take its time this time…. Things may not be exactly as I envisaged them initially, but as long as I’m in good health for the arrival of my grandchild and my wedding then the rest will have to wait. Thank you for your prayers, and for laughing along with Antthony and I – he is delightful :) Take care and enjoy your week, love Ali xx

  69. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:20 pm -  Reply

    Dear Kim, I feel quite humbled reading your kind words.. and the thought of welcoming another little person into our family, to share in all that we are lucky enough to have, is particularly precious. With love, Ali xx

  70. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:23 pm -  Reply

    My dear Alpa, is is good to hear from you, and you will know if you’ve been reading the blog that you have been asked after on many occasions. As before, I am sorry to hear that inspite of your best efforts, you are still struggling with your health, and can only pray that one day soon, all those unresolved issues will be addressed and dealt with. Thank you for your kind words and support, and yes, my appreciation of life – with all that it throws at us – will always remain strong. I’m glad my words didn’t come across as a whinge. Thank you for keeping in touch, and know that we are ALL always here for you. Take care, love Ali xx

  71. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:28 pm -  Reply

    Dear Rhona I am sitting here chuckling away at your hilarious story about your sister in law. That’s the spirit that keeps us going eh? I will have to read it to Colin :) And you’re right what you say about him, although sometimes in the wee small hours of the morning, there are times when I struggle to believe it… However, your support and kindness are always so welcome as are your kind words, and yes, I do have my health and this is just a setback, so I will continue to look forward to all the good things that are ahead. I hope life is good for you too, love Ali xxx

  72. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:29 pm -  Reply

    Jo, your blue skies and sunshine couldn’t be more welcome on this somewhat grey day. And your warm words have cheered me no end. Thank you my friend, love Ali xxx

  73. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:29 pm -  Reply

    Ann, you’ve made me well up…. because of course you’re right, and it’s always the invariably unspoken words that mean so much. Thank you for saying them, love Ali x

  74. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:40 pm -  Reply

    Jan, bless you – you are kind, and I thank you for your prayers also, love Ali xx

  75. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:41 pm -  Reply

    Hello Bev, so glad I didn’t come across as a moaning minnie, but this is a truly supportive place to be able to tell it as it is, and I have been overwhelmed with your kindness. Thank you. Love Ali xx

  76. alison Keenan February 10, 2015 at 2:46 pm -  Reply

    Hello there Janet, and how lovely to hear that your birthday weekend went well, and was spent with your family and dear Alfie. Poor little mite having that soreness in his eyes – he will grow up with the patience of a saint having had to put up with all this in his childhood! I’ve heard great things about Phoenix Nights with Peter Kay, and would love to see it. I find he has exactly my sense of humour, and without resorting to expletives either which is rare! You are good to continue working with Cancer Research and I’m not surprised they are happy with you. You’d be a boon to anyones business! :) I’ll hold onto your kind words over these next few weeks, and I know there are always options open to me.. just maybe in a different timeframe. Enjoy your week Janet, and thanks again for writing to me and keeping in touch, love Ali xx

  77. Ellen Rowley February 10, 2015 at 4:21 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison glad you are on the mend I did watch you and anttoney and boy did it make me chuckle hurry up back to qvc towers missing you. Ellen

  78. Jilly February 10, 2015 at 6:56 pm -  Reply

    Good evening Ali and everyone – thank you so much for your kind wishes with Annie and her hubby. It it is so lovely knowing you care. Annie is well but not getting much sleep with her hubby having a chesty cough so it was decided when needed she would have a sleep over here with little grandson. Saturday was the first time and they are staying tonight – this way they will both get a better night sleep. Annie said after Saturday she felt she had been away and so much better.
    Ali the scan picture is really lovely and one for the scrap book. How kind to share it with us – do thank Lucy also. So excited for you all. Lucy must put her feet up when she gets in from school.
    Gutted that you are having problems again Ali. I know Annie always wanted the implant rather than nothing. She will have the final one after April I think but so disappointed for you if the next does not work. You will be just wanting to get on and look forward to this wonderful year without more surgery and to move on from the nightmare last few years. How lovely to share the ups and downs with Colin.
    I have just managed short viewing on qvc recently – not quite sure where the days are going. Saw you a couple of times and thought you looked great.
    Alpa so sorry your health is not improving. I had a feeling all was not well so big hugs to you from here.
    Well I am off to take minutes at a meeting so must dash but will catch up soon. Lots of love and thank you again for your support – .looking forward to wedding updates etc. love Jilly xx

  79. Carole Collins February 10, 2015 at 11:24 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali, just wanted to send love and hugs to you. You are my favourite presenter and I dearly hope you will be back to full health soon. You have been so brave and an inspiration to us all. You have a lovely year to look forward to, you wedding and new grandchild. Lovely Colin to look after you as well. Please take care and keep positive. Lots of love Carole.xxx

  80. Elaine sallis February 11, 2015 at 6:49 pm -  Reply

    Ali thank you for your reply my mother in law seems to have made an amazing recovery and they are talking about letting her come home tomorrow. No baby yet. I just wanted to say that I am sorry that you feel you have lost some of your confidence. When I see you on qvc the first thing I see is how glamorous you are and then your vibrant personality comes across. None of that has changed so please be confident in who you are.

    Love Elaine xxxx

  81. loraine February 11, 2015 at 6:58 pm -  Reply

    Dear Alison sorry for late response so sorry your news wasn’t what you would have liked but as you say as long as your well other things can be dealt with at a later date I admire how you keep so upbeat but I’m sure it must be hard at times take care be nice to see you back on qvc hopefully asap love Loraine xxx

  82. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 10:56 am -  Reply

    Dear Lyn, I’m glad you enjoyed the blog, and thank you for taking the time to write to me. I am so sorry to hear that health wise, things in your family aren’t good, and I will pray this situation improves. Such a worry for you I know. Let’s hope that with the spring, longer days, more sunshine and less cold weather everyone will be feeling stronger and happier. Take care, love Ali xx

  83. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 10:58 am -  Reply

    Morning Pauline, and thank you so much for your kind words. So glad that you enjoy the blog, as I very much enjoy writing it and its such a great way for us all to keep in touch. Yes I am very much looking forward to my wedding – confirmed the time for the church and am just waiting for the draft of the invitations to come through – so all is good there. Oh and you’re right – Colin is the man of my dreams :) Enjoy the rest of your week, love Ali xxx

  84. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:03 am -  Reply

    Hello Pauline, so sorry to read that you have to live with chronic pain, and completely understand how some days you just need to let it out and have a good cry. I have complete admiration for you, as my times with pain have been few and far between, and lasting only a matter of weeks not years. I found it very difficult to cope with most things though when I was feeling that way, so I am very glad that you have a supportive partner – as I do. Stay strong, and please do keep in touch. With love, Ali xx

  85. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:04 am -  Reply

    Dear Barbara, lovely to hear from you, and thank you for your kind words. Sharing things always makes them seem less troubling I find. Take care, love Ali xx

  86. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:06 am -  Reply

    Haron, I thought you’d like the blooper! Debbie Flint put it on her blog too, and reckons its one of the funniest she’s seen for a while :) Have a good weekend, love Ali x

  87. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:06 am -  Reply

    Hee Hee – Sharon, I should have read down the page a fraction further! I did think Haron was a rather unusual name!!! :) xx

  88. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:08 am -  Reply

    Dear Mark and Linda how very kind of you both. I’m doing as the doctor and everyone else has ordered, and that is taking it easy and healing. Thank you for writing to me and being a part of the blog, love Ali xx

  89. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:17 am -  Reply

    Hello there Tina, and thanks so much for your kind and considered comment. I was sorry to read that you’ve been suffering with depression, but was very glad to know that your counsellor has made such a difference to your life and the way you now cope. What you wrote made absolute sense, and often when my friends are upset about something, they tell me but then often add – ‘not that it’s anything compared to what you have to deal with’ which is very sweet of them but as I say – it’s all relative. THEY are having to cope with whatever that situation is, and although it may not be life threatening it can be terribly difficult sometimes, and being honest about the way it makes you feel is far healthier I think than bottling it up.. which was the way I used to deal with things. You certainly were not prattling on Tina, and thank you for your kind advice. I do hope the weather has warmed a little for you in South Wales – I’m sitting here in my Carole Hochman fleecy pyjamas and a dressing gown, but having a hot flush so I could be in the Bahamas!!! Love to you, Ali xx

  90. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:22 am -  Reply

    Dear Monica, how lovely to hear from you, and how proud you must be of your daughter. It takes a very special person to work within this area, and I will be forever indebted to Anne-Marie and Roma, my chemo sister and nurse, who made my visits so comfortable and safe, when otherwise I would have struggled. Staying happy and positive is a cure in itself I feel, and I’m so glad that your daughter loves the I Hope pendant – she is the perfect person to carry the message to those who need it most. Love to you both, Ali xx

  91. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:29 am -  Reply

    My dear Julie I do indeed remember you and how incredibly courageous you were, facing a second bout of chemo. I am so pleased to know that you are safely through your treatment, but very sorry to hear about the complications you’ve had with your lung and pray that your recent operation will sort that for you. As you say it’s so frustrating when you want to crack on with things and your health lets you down. That said, I was delighted to read that you’re still working in radio, that life is exciting, and that you’re getting on with it in spite of these setbacks. Your ethos is mine – there is NO point thinking about the ifs and buts of what might or might not happen. It just taints the here and now. I wish you health and happiness and thanks so much for getting in touch again. Be good to yourself, love Ali xx

  92. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:44 am -  Reply

    Hello there Maggie, it was nice to meet you albeit briefly at the Beauty Bash, and thank you very much for what you’ve written here on the blog. Your kind words are much appreciated. I hope all is well with you and do keep in touch, love Ali x

  93. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 11:55 am -  Reply

    Hello there Twinkle, and thank you as always for your sweet kind words. I read your message to Colin and he says thank you too! Knowing as I do, of your struggles, everything you have written for me should be attributed to you :) Lovely to have you as part of The Army. Love Ali xx

  94. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 12:52 pm -  Reply

    My dear Mary, I am in awe of the fact you have found time to write to me, as reading about your busy life leaves me feeling quite breathless! :) But I do love reading your comments, as I’m sure everyone does, and did indeed see the previous one, which I replied to just before I posted this blog, so it’s there waiting for you :) You are very kind writing as you do, I agree that it can be much harder in life to cope with things when you aren’t given a choice. However I also firmly believe that whatever it is that causes you to be unhappy is relevant and therefore important to you, irrespective of how it compares to other folks’ troubles. You are one of the kindest, generous and most selfless women I think I have ever known. I don’t think I’ve ever heard you taking time out just for you. For your children, your husband, your sister, the rest of your family and friends, nothing is ever too much trouble for you. No journey too far, no cricket match unimportant, no challenge too daunting. People love you for who you are not what you look like, and that’s something that’s been said to me and is a great comfort I find. But remember, if you are unhappy with the way things are, then I’m certain if you were to ask for help there would be many folk more than happy to do just that. A problem shared is a problem halved – I’ve always found that :) For my part, if you read Catherine Huntley and Debbie Flint’s blogs, they are both recommending books which helped them hugely with weight loss, and may help you. Take care Mary, and ‘speak’ soon, love Ali xx

  95. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:05 pm -  Reply

    Romola – what a great name! You sound very much like a woman after my own heart, particularly your passion for Diamonique! I will be missing my show again this evening, but will watch and probably buy more myself! :) Thank you so much for your kind and positive message. I love thinking that this IS the final hurdle and that I will be able to leave it all behind and concentrate on being a grandmother and bride :) good times!
    I very much that all is well in your life and that you will keep in touch, love Ali xx

  96. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:13 pm -  Reply

    Hi there Nanny Sue! :) Thanks for writing to me again, and for your kindness – the positive vibes you send are tangible :) Lucy has her special 4D scan in a weeks time, and so I will literally get to ‘see’ the baby before it’s born which is incredible. You’ll be pleased to hear that we’ve confirmed the time for the church on our wedding day, and I am just awaiting a proof of the wedding invitation. You’re right these are far better things to concentrate on :) Do hope all is well with you and yours, and thanks for keeping in touch, love Ali xx

  97. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:18 pm -  Reply

    Hello Jan, nice to hear from you on the blog, and good to know that you are also a Tweeter! Your thoughtful words are so very much appreciated, and yes I like to feel that I am very much a glass half full kind of girl – preferably a wine glass!! :) I do have to add though that I wouldn’t have coped anywhere near as well without the love and support of everyone here, and my dear friends and family. Its been unconditional and consistent and I would have been lost without it, and I thank you for it. Take care and do keep in touch, love Ali xx

  98. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:24 pm -  Reply

    Dear Judith, It’s always lovely to hear from you, and thank you for your kindness and concern. Yes, my surgeon has suggested a way forwards, but is obviously very keen that I give my poor old body a chance to heal fully before we attempt anything else, which is what I will do. As you say Lucy will need me, and I will need my strength and good health to help her. She’s been struggling a little with the pressures of work and I’m hoping will be able to finish school a little earlier than originally planned. You’re also right when you say how much of a support Ali’s Army is to me – as I’ve just said to Jan too! Thank you for being a part of this blog, and for keeping in touch, it means a lot, love Ali xx

  99. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:27 pm -  Reply

    Dear Sue, Good to hear from you, and I’m glad to know that you continue to enjoy the blog. You’re very kind to write so thoughtfully and it makes me happy to think that ‘m able to cheer you up, and that you enjoy my hours at QVC. I am very much looking forward to being back there as soon as I’m able. Enjoy your weekend, love Ali xx

  100. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:36 pm -  Reply

    My dear Christine, thank you so much for sharing your inspirational message with us. How wonderful to know that you survived such an horrendous time, and actually got to meet one of the consultants who had helped you all those years ago. I’m not surprised she said you were a miracle, and reading your story gives me hope and many reasons to be grateful , and I thank you for that too. It’s lovely to know that your two sons have blessed you with six grandchildren to love and that they bring you such joy. Thank you also for your moving words, and such a lovely analogy of how I’ve helped you – you certainly have inspired me and I very much hope that you will keep in touch. Take care and stay well, love Ali xx

  101. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:44 pm -  Reply

    Congratulations Sue! Delighted to hear that your niece Lisa was safely delivered of a baby boy on the 29th January. Gosh, I’m jolly glad they decided on a C section – he was a very bonny boy wasn’t he! Charlie is such a lovely name too – infact if he grows up to be as delightful as our Charlie Brook, you’ll all be lucky. I can imagine how thrilled you must be feeling, and I hope very much that this will be just the start of a wonderful and close relationship with him, in the same way you are with his mum :) Take care and do keep in touch, love Ali xx

  102. Alpa February 12, 2015 at 1:44 pm -  Reply

    Dear Ali,

    Thank you for your kind words. I’m not sure if you received my email. It’s lovely that my friends here think of me and care. I am afraid it is impossible for all my health issues to be addressed and dealt with. This year April will be 20 years since my diagnosis. If anyone thinks anything of ME they think it’s ‘tiredness’ Tiredness has nothing to do with ME. It’s a debilitating neuroimmune disease that affects every system and organ in the body. The main characteristic is an abnormally delayed muscle recovery after doing trivial things. Accumulated exertion causes disease progression and disease progression can be fatal. I have a severe form of the disease. ME has not been recognised here as a physical illness for almost 30 years now. This is why there is no hope of medical treatment here. I can not get medical treatment for the things that can be treated because of the diagnosis.

    There is also the POTS which is bad enough on its own. It is caused by dysfunction of the autonomic nervous system which controls the automatic functions in the body i.e. temperature, blood flow, blood pressure etc. Along with low circulating blood volume, it means being upright and the slightest movement places severe pressure on my heart. I still do not have my test results from last year March despite chasing them up. The tests are not conclusive. The only response from my consultant is that we meet to discuss what can be done. I’ve waited a year for an appointment despite also chasing that up! I am also trying to get treatment for an untreated fractured scapula and problems with my back and spine that are affecting my mobility.

    The constant disbelief is intolerable. No one chooses to lose everything in one fell swoop let alone have no quality of life. Dealing with doctors and consultants is bad enough as they refuse to acknowledge the illness. I’m also still expected to tolerate constant abuse and harassment from friends and family. It’s taken me 20 years to realise they had no intention of believing me or educating themselves. Standing up to them means more abuse and harassment and being blamed for their bad behaviour I don’t have anything to do with them as it’s taken a toll on my health. People were quite bad enough before!

    A few years ago after being bedbound I realised I needed help at home. As private care was out of the question I went through the council. It took over a year to set up care and over the last two years there have been on going problems with the council, care agencies and carers. The final straw was on going problems with the most recent carer and a complaint to the agency. The manager didn’t believe a word I said. At the same time they handed my care package back to the council without any reason. I made a complaint to the council over two years ago and last June the Local Government Ombudsman agreed to investigate a formal complaint. I recently received a draft decision based on incorrect information from the council and not one of the issues I raised was addressed. The Ombudsman is meant to be independent and impartial and the caseworker was in clear support of the council! All this coincided with being harassed countless times a day by the council. I’ve now asked for my care package to be suspended pending the outcome of the investigation. I think the best thing to do will be to cancel it. Neither the Ombudsman or the council are going to do anything different or sort out the problems. The latter seem to be lying at every term. There’s no point in paying for a service I have no hope of receiving.

    Jilly, thank you for your kind words and hugs, very much appreciated :) Good to hear that Annie is well and I am sorry her hubbie has a horrible chesty cough. I’m glad Annie has been having sleepovers at home when needed. Thinking of you and sending my love x

    Tricia, thank you for thinking of me. I hope you know we are all here for you. My love to you x

    Ali, hope you are continuing to rest up :)

    Take care,
    Lots of Love, Alpa xxx

  103. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:45 pm -  Reply

    Hi Hazel, and thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words and good wishes. I’m definitely on the mend now, and once I can be fitted for a prosthesis I will be able to return to work – so hopefully not too much more time away from QVC. Love to you too, Ali xx

  104. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 1:50 pm -  Reply

    My dear Theresa, I was so sorry to hear about your family’s worries. MS is such a difficult illness for so many reasons, and there are a number of fellow sufferers who write here, and I always admire their courage. It is particularly hard when it involves making changes you otherwise wouldn’t need to make, but I am very glad that your granddaughter Ellice has you there to love and look after her. I do hope things will become easier in time, and that your Ellice’s mum will improve. They are constantly working on a cure for this illness and I have no doubt one day they will find it. Thank you for taking the time out to write to me in the midst of all this, and I hope that you too stay well, love Ali xx

  105. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 2:01 pm -  Reply

    Hi there Rhona, you are funny, and thank you so much for your lovely long comment on my previous blog. I’ve just been back and read it, and you had me smiling reading about your rush to hospital thinking you wouldn’t get there in time! My husband rushed back indoors to get a carrier bag for me to sit on incase my waters went on his upholstery! The car was new to be fair :) Thank you for bringing me up to speed with everything else, and I am definitely thrilled for you, knowing that you’re going to be a great aunt to a little girl!! So exciting! Thanks too for your favourite film titles – I agree Meryl Streep can do no wrong in my book either, although Sophie’s Choice is the one incredible movie that I cried virtually all the way through, and would never be able to watch again, especially as I have children of my own now. I was really chuffed that The Theory of Everything did so well at the BAFTA awards, although not surprised. Hope it’s not too cold way up there in Scotland, and that the snowdrops are out. With love, Ali xx

  106. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 2:03 pm -  Reply

    Dear Linda Daisy and Teasel (great names all of you!) :) Thanks so much for writing, and for your kind wishes, I am definitely getting a little better each day. love to you all, Ali xx

  107. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 2:06 pm -  Reply

    Dear Susan, thanks for your kind words, and I too hope things will be on a more even keel as the year progresses. I think allowing things to settle down and giving sufficient time for the healing is essential, and I’m trying hard to give my body its best chance. As you say, so much to look forward to. Do keep in touch, love Ali xx

  108. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 2:08 pm -  Reply

    Dear Linda, it was lovely to hear from you, and to read your kind words. I am lucky to have Colin by my side, which is where he has always been, strong and supportive, and I know that not everyone is as blessed. I will definitely keep on moving forwards and smiling as there’s lots to be happy about – Lucy’s baby and the wedding particularly! I hope that you have plenty in your life to smile about, and thanks for keeping in touch.Love Ali xx

  109. Alison Keenan February 12, 2015 at 2:31 pm -  Reply

    My dear Alpa, you are kind to write to me, and in such a positive light, when I know things are really difficult for you. Your advice is not only thoughtful but very helpful, and you’re right, it is best to allow yourself to feel and to just be, without putting yourself under any more pressure. Good advice for you too dear Alpa, although I know your illness makes this much harder for you. I hope that in writing on this blog, you also read others comments and realised that you too are very much loved and cared for by so many. The Army is a wonderful thing and I hope one day to be able to arrange a get together and meet as many of you as possible. That’s a date for the diary :) Be kind to yourself, and thanks again for keeping in touch, love Ali xx

  110. Gill February 12, 2015 at 6:17 pm -  Reply

    Dearest Ali, I am so sorry to learn about your setback. Thankfully you have plenty of planning to keep you occupied while you take time to heal & the lovely Colin, your wonderful family, and the fabulous Ali’s Army to love & support you. You are one of my personal hero’s. Sending you love, hugs & sunbeams. Looking forward to seeing your beautiful smile back on my screen however long it takes. Love, Gill X

  111. Jilly February 12, 2015 at 8:14 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali – I am back again – quicker than recently as I was needing to be out the other evening. I had thought you would be able to have the expander sooner rather than later but I now think not – so am really sorry to hear that – actually gutted for you. Not sure what an expander is so will read up on it. You are not a winger and we all thought/ hoped that this would be the first year in many that was not going to involve any ops for you. Just so very sorry that there has been these problems. You always look so great and full of happiness when we see you. Your poor body must just need a jolly good rest for a while. Recover from what you have had to put up with and then go forward.
    Tonight Annie and grandson are staying at their house – they spent two nights here (going home during the day) which meant both Annie and her husband had good nights sleep and it has done them the world of good. Her husband has had to increase his steroids which takes its toll on the body and as anyone taking them knows has not very pleasant side effects. It is a long battle I feel but……..onwards and upwards we must go with sometimes a few steps back before we can take them forward.
    Just give yourself some time out for you Ali. No matter what this year is going to be such a wonderful massive change for you all and very exciting it all is. Just thought you can be busy knitting for baby!!
    I am now going to read your ” click here” article before the Sewing Bee comes on.
    Big massive hugs Ali and everyone and Tricia, Janet and Alpa – all Ali’s Army who keep us going together love Jilly xx
    P.s wasn’t the Bake Off so very funny last night – one to lift you up if feeling down – Annie and I did laugh so much.

  112. Jilly February 12, 2015 at 8:25 pm -  Reply

    Wonderful, perfect article Ali. Tear jerker but perfect. Thank you for such honesty and sharing with us love (again) Jilly xx

  113. heather hutchinson February 13, 2015 at 11:40 am -  Reply

    hi Alison I would just like to say you are one in a million you just plod on regardless the last time you were on air you just kept on laughing I hope you get sorted soon you have got your grandchild to look forward too and that alone is so special take care and goodl luck xxxx

  114. jill rycroft February 13, 2015 at 2:25 pm -  Reply

    I wondered where you had gone as I missed you on the Diamonique shows and I’m sorry to hear that you have had yet more set backs but hopefully all will be sorted by the time of your much awaited wedding, well I’m dying to see your gown and your photos which I hope you’ll post on your blog. Get well soon and it’ll be a delight to see you back on screen.

    Good luck Ali keep on fighting.

  115. Vanessa February 13, 2015 at 3:47 pm -  Reply

    Dear Alison, my thoughts and best wishes are with you, keep smiling your cheery smile. Whatever life throws at us we will always be us and I am sure that all who know and love you will cherish you. You are a truly glamorous and courageous lady. Be well, take care.xxx Vanessa

  116. Alpa February 13, 2015 at 4:11 pm -  Reply

    My Dear Ali,

    Your article brought tears to my eyes : articulate, honest and touching. Like Jilly, I am about to read up on expander implants.

    Lots of love to Debz, Jilly, Tricia, Janet, Sue, Elaine and all in Ali’s Army.

    Wishing you a restful weekend Ali :)

    Lots of Love, Alpa xxx

  117. Michele February 13, 2015 at 5:39 pm -  Reply

    Dear Ali so sorry to hear your news your so positive and always have a lovely smile in your face . Love watching the show with Anthony it was so funny and did make laugh again. My thoughts and prays are with you and wishing you good health. Take care x

  118. Mary Morphy February 13, 2015 at 6:09 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali..just a quick one to say thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words and to say I have seen Saving Mr Banks..cried…a beautiful moving film My sister and I are waiting for The Second Marigold Hotel to be released as the first one was fabulous..very poignant and funny and an amazing cast..the second one has Richard Gere..whoop whoop!! Hope your feelin a bit better each day. lots of lov Mary xx

  119. pauline carr February 13, 2015 at 6:15 pm -  Reply

    Keep smiling Ali we love and miss you, so funny the blooper with Antthony will keep you smiling too xxxx

  120. Jilly February 13, 2015 at 11:30 pm -  Reply

    Hi again Ali – I am writing this on my hubbies iPad and it is great!!! So much easier than going on the computer. Just wanted to say how very wonderful if we could have a “meet and great” as mentioned in Alpa’s blog. What fun that would be – so much to say, us all wondering who is who and just being with such a supportive group of like minds – but I think at the moment your world is full of other things so maybe this can be something for a future time when you are a grandmother and married woman!!! You could even wear your wedding dress so we could all see you in it – now that’s an idea!!! It would be Fabarooo.
    So very sorry that you have been having a time and a half Alpa. Really not nice and not what you need but keep plodding on and you really will get there.
    Just wondering how little Alfie is keeping. Big hugs to him.
    Delighted to read you have the church time sorted Ali. So brilliant to have another thing crossed off the list. I think you are all going to have a ball. Like everyone else we will be waiting to see the dress- and you in it of course.
    It has been a very busy week(another funeral today) so lovely the weekend is here. Do have a lovely one and greedily await your next update Ali love Jillyxx

  121. Jilly February 13, 2015 at 11:45 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali, I am quite embarrassed to bombard you again but have to say on reading up on the expander that is what Annie has. Yes really!!! We just didn’t know what it was called. It has worked very well and one of the reasons why she had the reduction on the other side. She is ” filled” to the size she likes (once she was happy the other side was reduced to match) and this is what will be replaced later by a permanent bag. Don’t think that is the tecnical term.. So hopefully when you are fighting fit again it will work for you. She has a magnet thing also in the bag for easy filling and Just forgets about it. It does not even bleep going through the airport!!! So Ali my dear onwards and upwards and lots of love Jilly xx

  122. Rhona Fenton February 14, 2015 at 12:00 pm -  Reply

    Hi Alison what you mean is we are two of a kind :) what I didn’t tell you before my rush to hospital I made Colin go back inside to change before we went to hospital to which 21 years on and I never get to hear the end off it, well he was in his working clothes he wasn’t going in like that reason she was nearly born in the car I kid you not!! love the fact your hubby went back in for a carry bag for you to sit on that’s funny you could say he was about as bad as me :) back to your film choice as I said to you before I cant watch that film think I got as far as when she had to decide which one off her children and you saw them take the little girl away like you being a mum I had to turn it off right away!! as much as I love meryl but I draw the line at that one!! I agree about the BAFTA which was good and how the theory of everything did really well :) one to watch but think I will need my hankies for that one also! before I go yes weather been good lovely sunny days and snowdrops out :) I had a thought this morning that my little great niece might be born on you and colin’s wedding day why stop now we have done everything else same time in years past why stop now :) enjoy your weekend love to you and yours from me and mine as always Rhona xx

  123. Sandra Gregory February 15, 2015 at 12:00 am -  Reply

    Hi Ali, I am sorry to,read that you are nit too well at the moment. I wish you well and hope you are soon feeling better. Think g of you and sending love abd hugs to you. You arecsuchban inspirational and lovely lady. Take care xxx

  124. Alison Keenan February 16, 2015 at 11:43 am -  Reply

    My dear Alpa, I am sorry but having recently moved over to an Apple computer, I may have missed your e mail. I have though read with sadness your diary of events and disappointments, and see know that you have literally not left a stone unturned in your search for answers and help. I so wish there was something I could do to rectify your appalling situation, but all I can do, is what everyone in the Army has done for you, and that is to send my love, and continue to offer my support, for what it’s worth… Please take care, and let us all hope against hope that something will come along to make your life better. Ali xxx

  125. Alison Keenan February 16, 2015 at 11:47 am -  Reply

    Dear Ellen, I am sorry not to have replied to you sooner, but I think I’m a little out of kilter with my answers! So glad you enjoyed mine and Antthony’s blooper. Hoping to be back with you as soon as possible. Love Ali x

  126. Alison Keenan February 16, 2015 at 11:54 am -  Reply

    My dear Jilly, so good to hear from you and to know that Annie and her husband are well – altho a chesty cough is not much fun I appreciate! I am so glad that all her surgery is going well, and I really appreciate your kind words following my failed surgery. As each day passes though I get more used to the way I look, and hopefully it will only be for the next 6 months or more.. I’ve made an appointment for a prostheses for when I’m fully healed and then I can come back to work! How was the sleepover?! I bet you spoiled them both rotten. I’m hoping that once I’m back to driving I can go and stay with my mum – she always spoils me too :) take care and stay warm, love Ali xx

  127. Alison Keenan February 16, 2015 at 12:31 pm -  Reply

    Hello there Carole and thanks so much for your kind words, and you’re right, I do have a fabulous year to look forward to. We’re seeing Lucy this weekend when she has her 4D scan – exciting! I hope that all is well with you and yours and please do keep in touch xxx love Ali

  128. Alpa February 16, 2015 at 8:57 pm -  Reply

    My dear Ali,

    Thank you so much for your kind and uplifting words. I’m afraid there are so many things to deal with, I forget what it is like not to put myself under any more pressure. A friend recently advised that I must take care of myself above and before everything else, even if that means letting go of some things and shrugging them off. I tend to do things the other way around and at the end of it I have nothing left for myself. I just find it impossible to do both.

    It would be fabulous to have a get together. Like Jilly said, maybe this can be something for a future time, when you don’t have so many other things going on. After all, Ali’s Army isn’t going anywhere! I love the idea of you turning up in your wedding dress :)

    Jilly, thank you for your kind words. I have left everything for the last week as it was too much. There were also other things that could not be delayed. At least once the Ombudsman’s case is over that will be the end of it. It has just been such a waste of time and energy and taken a toll on my health. I have had to put other on going things to one side for the time being. Thank you for explaining what an expander is. It made it much clearer after reading up on it. Love to you and Annie x

    Take care, Ali,

    Lots of Love, Alpa xxx

  129. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:33 am -  Reply

    My dear Elaine, you’re very welcome – so glad to hear about your mother in law, that is such good news. You wrote this to me on the 11th and I know that the baby hadn’t made an appearance at that time, but am keeping everything crossed that this has now changed! Do let me know please :) You are kind, and your words are very thoughtful… particularly when you tell me that I am still the same when you see me at work – that has cheered me, and I’ll hold onto that when I’m back next week. Take care and thanks again for keeping me in the family loop as it were! Love Alixx

  130. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:39 am -  Reply

    Hello there Loraine, and thank you for taking the time to write to me. It hasn’t been exactly a walk in the park, but it’s getting a little easier each day and I hope to be back at work next week :) It’s a beautiful sunny day here so I hope very much that the sun is shining where you are. Take care, Love Ali x

  131. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:43 am -  Reply

    Dear Gill, thanks for writing to me, and so glad you enjoyed the blog. You’re right, there is a lot to plan, and having just received the mock up of the wedding invitations and Order of Service, we’ve now got to choose hymns! I know that I am very lucky to have all of you in the Army as well as Colin and my family to support me, and I hope you know how much I appreciate this. Thank you for your hugs and sunbeams – they’ve arrived this morning by the bucketload :) Love Ali xx

  132. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:48 am -  Reply

    Hi there Jilly good to hear from you again, and yes I did indeed watch the Celebrity Bake Off and was delighted to see Lulu on there. She kept that very quiet when I last saw her! :) Love Dame Edna too who appeared to have never entered a kitchen before let alone cooked something! How lovely that you’ve been able to look after Annie and her little one so that everyone gets the rest they need. You’re right, steroids aren’t particularly pleasant to take, but I just hope that as you say, with time, all will correct itself. Yes, you guessed correctly re timings for the expander… My surgeon was very honest and said that the longer I can give myself to heal the better it will be in the long term – there’s no choice really… Thank you for reading the article.. It was quite difficult to write, but I believe that honesty is the best policy, and the BCC forum is the best place for people read it. I do hope the sun is shining for you today – it’s glorious here – so I’m off for my daily walk shortly. Sam left his wallet here last night, so I will have to Special Delivery it to him! Lots of love, Ali xx

  133. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:50 am -  Reply

    Heather, that is a lovely thing to say, and I thank you for it! Plodding on regardless is the perfect analogy for how I’ve been feeling over these last few months, but I’m feeling more positive each day, and with the arrival of the Wedding invite proofs and then Lucy’s scan on Saturday, there’s always something to look forward to. I do hope that all is well with you, and thanks again for keeping in touch, love Ali x

  134. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:52 am -  Reply

    Vanessa, You’ve made my morning describing me as glamorous – if you could see me in my onesie, no make-up and my glasses perched on the end of my nose you’d know why it’s cheered me so much :) Thank you, and seriously, your kind words are huge incentive to me.. Sending you love, Ali xx

  135. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:54 am -  Reply

    Alpa, thank you for taking the time in the midst of all you’re going through, to read the article. I have always tried to be as honest as possible for BCC as I believe it’s a useful forum for others in the same position. Im planning to have another blog for you early next week, and I’ll let you know what the surgeon has in mind, moving forwards. I hope the sun on your face today will cheer you, love Ali x

  136. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:56 am -  Reply

    Dear Michele, thank you for your love and prayers, and I am really pleased that the Antthony blooper made you laugh – it does me, every time I see it! Deb Flint reckons it may get us onto It’ll Be Alright on the Night! I’ve not been on there since my This Morning days :) Wishing you a good week and good health too, love Ali x

  137. Barbara Sainthouse February 17, 2015 at 9:57 am -  Reply

    Hello Alison. I have been following your page with added interest because my daughter was diagnosed with breast cancer in June 2013, aged 43. She also went through a horrendous time like you and her post reconstrucion recovery was not straightforward either. She still wears a wig as her has not grown back fully, but is resigned to it now. So i know just how frustrating you feel. You are entitled to feel low from time to time, even though you also feel lucky you getting through it. My daughter got married to a wonderful man on Valentines Day 2015. He has been her rock, despite having not long met before her diagnosis. The wedding was the most emotional day for everyone who shared it, unforgetable and she looked wonderful. You are having the same happy run up to your forthcoming wedding as she had and it kept her focussed. I wish you well with everything you have planned. You are a very positive lady.

  138. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:59 am -  Reply

    Mary, I am so glad that my words were a support to you – heaven knows you’ve supported me enough over the years!! So glad that you enjoyed Saving Mr Banks – although I thought you’d cry – would be impossible not to.. Yes, I mentioned the sequel to the Marigold hotel last blog, as I too am an avid Richard Gere fan . I remembered another more recent film I loved him in, although it was a tad distressing “Unfaithful” – worth a watch, but make sure the children aren’t around!!!! :) Enjoy your week, love Ali x

  139. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 9:59 am -  Reply

    Pauline, I’m missing you too, but have a pencilled date for return to work, and also for prostheses fitting, so that’s something to aim for! Take care, Love Ali x

  140. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 10:03 am -  Reply

    Hey Jilly, how fabulous are the iPads! I use my iMac to write my replies to the blog, and use the iPad to scroll down and read them! It’s not always a failsafe, but a jolly sight easier than going backwards and forwards constantly! I think it’s March time that I have my meeting to see if we could actually make the meet and greet a reality.. it would be so lovely to give something back to as many of you as possible :) Yes, the wedding day is going to be so lovely, and if the sun shines as it does today, it will be perfect! I too had a funeral to attend yesterday – my dear Aunty Eileen passed at 93 years old – the rain lashed down and it was cold… But I’m sure the sun is shining for her now. Love to you and yours Jilly, and thanks for keeping in touch.. (perhaps you should drop a hint for an iPad for yourself.. would save you having to borrow hubbies! ) :) love Ali xx

  141. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 10:08 am -  Reply

    Dear Jilly, your Annie has what I had with my first mastectomy, and I’m delighted it’s working so well for her. I nicknamed mine Dolly which was a source of constant amusement to dear Deb Greenwood :) The one that I may have in the future is actually a partially gel filled implant – works on the same principle as Annie’s but will stay in after its filled… I’ve had so much surgery there, he’s trying to avoid more. I doubt it will be until the autumn now, but thank you very much for reading up on it – an interesting business eh? :) Take care, love Ali x

  142. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 10:11 am -  Reply

    Rhona, you always make me smile with your messages. I can imagine you actually saying these things to me, and you’re right, there are a remarkable number of coincidences in our lives – even down to the snowdrops being open in the garden! Glad you enjoyed the BAFTA’s – roll on the Oscars is what I say! Yes, wouldn’t that be fab if your niece was born on our wedding day – another one for the blog! Take care and have a great week, love Ali xx

  143. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 10:12 am -  Reply

    Sandra that is very kind of you to say so – and to have taken the time to actually write here and say so! Your love and hugs are much appreciated, and mine are winging their way back to you :) Ali xx

  144. alison Keenan February 17, 2015 at 10:15 am -  Reply

    Alpa, I just wanted to drop you a line before I get dressed and on with my day. I hope you’ve seen Jilly’s reply, but the get together may well be something that could become a reality. Love the idea of wearing my wedding dress to it – it always seems a shame that you only wear it once :) Although the Ombudsman’s case felt like a waste of time and energy to you, I truly believe it was worth trying. None of these things are a waste of time, they keep you fired up, unswerving and strong in your battle. You would never have known the outcome if you hadn’t have tried. Take care and enjoy the sunshine, love Ali xx

  145. Elaine sallis February 17, 2015 at 7:58 pm -  Reply

    Hi Ali did send a second e mail but think you may have missed it . No worries hope you are feeling a little better. I just wanted you to know the baby has arrived. She was born on Sunday. 7lb 11ozs she is called josselin.
    I am biased but she is gorgeous. When I asked molly the next day what she had got she told me a new colouring book! I am so lucky to have four such beautiful grand children.

  146. Colin Kennedy February 17, 2015 at 11:42 pm -  Reply

    Everytime i go onto qvc.uk website. I always look on your blog.I have been on qvc.uk since day 1 and your like a family to me.I have seen your triumphs and tears and you are a very courageous lady. I myself suffering cancer of the bowel.good days and bad but still keep smiling.
    You have a chance now to get married and be happy. I would say get what you need done but take note your partner accepts you for who you are.
    They say health comes first but when you have been through hell…you need that love and comfort in the person who loves you.

  147. loraine February 18, 2015 at 3:42 pm -  Reply

    Dear Alison hope you got my first email and that your feeling much better miss seeing you on qvc hurry back love Loraine xx

  148. Janet Jones February 18, 2015 at 6:40 pm -  Reply

    My Dear Ali, reading your replies, you sound in a much better place in coming to terms with what will be hopefully a temporary situation for you until the autumn.
    I love the idea of Ali’s Army meeting up one day, putting faces to all those names.
    Alfie will be 2 years old on Monday so we are going up this weekend to celebrate with him, can’t wait. Not long until you have your grandchild in your arms & sounds like the wedding plans are coming together, so much to keep you busy and such wonderful events to look forward to.
    I was at Cancer Research today attempting a Mothers Day Display, which |I really enjoyed. I too am a fan of Richard Gere and can’t wait to see the next Marigold Hotel film hopefully next week.
    Take care of yourself Ali and look forward to seeing you back on our screens. Love Janet xx

  149. alison Keenan February 20, 2015 at 7:57 pm -  Reply

    Dear Barbara, It was so good to hear from you, although I was sorry to learn of your daughters diagnosis and subsequent treatment. 43 is no age to have to struggle with this disease, and I am certain that as her mother you would have given anything to have made it better for her.. Inspite of her reconstruction and her hair issues, it is wonderful to know that she was married in February and I am sure that day was one of the most special you have ever shared as a family. You’re right about the wedding preparations keeping me focused.. I have just finalised the copy for the invitations, and we can hopefully send them to the printers shortly… Only another four months to go :) Please give your daughter my love, tell her to stay strong and happy, and I hope you will be able to as well. Thank you Barbara for keeping in touch, love Ali xx

  150. alison Keenan February 20, 2015 at 7:59 pm -  Reply

    Dear Elaine, I think I must have missed the mail, because otherwise I would have definitely congratulated you on the birth of your fourth grandchild, little Josselin! What a beautiful name and as you say, a gorgeous baby. Bless little Molly for her comment – hilarious :) I was with my mum when I read it out to her and we both laughed out loud. Happy days ahead Elaine, so many of them. Thank you for letting me know, love Ali xx

  151. alison Keenan February 20, 2015 at 8:02 pm -  Reply

    Dear Colin, how good to hear from you, especially when it sounds as though you have more than enough to contend with in your own life. Bless you for your positive words – you clearly are a man after my own heart – good and bad days, but still smiling :) Your gentle advice brought a tear to my eye, and bless you for it.. I very much hope that you have someone in your life to love and comfort you too. Take care and please do keep in touch – lovely to know you are the other side of the camera. Love Ali xx

  152. alison Keenan February 20, 2015 at 8:05 pm -  Reply

    My dear Loraine, I did indeed although I penned rather a few replies that day! “Hello there Loraine, and thank you for taking the time to write to me. It hasn’t been exactly a walk in the park, but it’s getting a little easier each day and I hope to be back at work next week :) It’s a beautiful sunny day here so I hope very much that the sun is shining where you are. Take care, Love Ali x” …. I’m missing you too, but am planning to be back with a vengeance next Thursday at 9pm with my Diamonique show and a chance for you to win a GORGEOUS pair of earrings! Take care, love Ali xx

  153. alison Keenan February 20, 2015 at 8:09 pm -  Reply

    My dear Janet, How marvellous that Alfie will be two this Monday! (today I would imagine). Incredible to think all that time has passed since you first held him, and to low that he has been through so much is amazing. I am getting there emotionally, and have far more good days than bad.. I will be back with you on Thursday, complete with proper padding, and very much looking forward to your company :) I didn’t realise the next Best Marigold Hotel was due out so soon! I will have to pencil in a date with Colin to see it :) You take care, and I hope you had a great weekend, love me xx

  154. Elizabeth and Alexandra February 22, 2015 at 9:52 am -  Reply

    Dear Ali,

    Sending you much love and health *vibes* your way to continue to heal and feel much better. Wishing you lots of happiness and laughter with dress fittings, new additions and of course your wedding. Having something positive to look forward to is a great healer for mind, body and spirit!

    Take care as always

    Love Elizabeth and Alexandra xx

  155. Alison Keenan February 23, 2015 at 7:40 pm -  Reply

    Dear Elizabeth and Alexandra, you are both so right :) So much to look forward to, and feeling a lot stronger now than I was a couple of weeks ago. Do hope life is good for you and thanks for being in touch, love Ali xx

  156. Jean Reynolds March 12, 2015 at 10:58 pm -  Reply

    I laughed at you Ali,when you made reference to your figure when on Anthonny designs. How marvellous you can laugh it off. I can honestly say that it wasn’t noticed even after you made reference. I which you every deserved happiness in your marriage to Colin. He sounds an amazing guy and you deserve all the happiness he gives you. I will tell my daughter Wendy what you said and am sure she will laugh too as she has been in similar situations as you know she is so similar to yourself with regards to all your past trials and tribulations. Thanks for your inspiration to her and to me as well as I feel she is so like you in attitude. Keep up your attitude and progress. On a lighter note, will you change your name. He sounds a great guy. Wish I could meet someone like him after being made a widow at 57,now 67. Who knows. All good wishes for your future.

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