What a lovely response to last week’s blog! Colin brought me a cup of tea in bed on Monday morning and found me smiling as I read through all your lovely messages. Interesting to see that so many of us share the choice of most fancied film idols, and nice to hear what your all time movie favourites were too. As always I’m sending love to those who are struggling with things at present, and please know that the whole Army is here for you. Jilly if you get a moment, do let us know all is well with Annie and her husband as you have been on my mind.. It was a joy though to share your memories of the arrival of your children and grandchildren…
I was talking to my mum recently and she reminded me that she was with me when I had the scan of Jack at the hospital. The room was so small she could only hold my toe rather than my hand, but at least she got to see him when he was a reasonable size!
I also wanted to thank those of you who tweet (@alikqvc) and commented on the article I wrote for Breast Cancer Care’s Vita magazine. In case you didn’t see, it was a follow-up to the piece I wrote after the Fashion Show in 2012, if you’d like to read it, click here. What you will realise if you do, is that it was written back in September before I had my final reconstruction in October, and although the left side worked well, because of the radiotherapy and compromised blood supply, the right side sadly failed. This rarely happens, and having heard from so many of you over the years, I know that this surgery is often 100% successful : )
What I hadn’t wanted to mention to you was the fact that my right breast wouldn’t heal. My local surgery has been very kind and I’ve become pretty proficient at changing my own dressings, but endless antibiotics took their toll, and my poor tummy didn’t like them at all! Just before Christmas I saw my surgeon again who cut the dead tissue away in the hope it would heal over the hole, but with nothing in the centre but implant, it didn’t. It was decided last week that my only option would be to would be to remove the implant and stitch up the hole, giving me my best chance to heal fully.
Of course this has left me completely flat on the right side… I know some women prefer this option and are comfortable with a prosthesis, but if I’m honest this was the one thing ever since my diagnosis I have fought so hard to avoid… I know that having a ‘shape’ makes me feel more feminine and like my old self, and without the implant I feel ’empty’ if that makes sense… Colin continues to be totally supportive and understanding, along with my surgeon, who has suggested we try an expander implant once I am fully better, so there’s always hope : )
I hope this doesn’t come across as a whinge, it’s just that I had wanted this to be a year without surgery so that I could concentrate all my efforts on my daughter, her baby and my wedding… I have my first dress fitting on April 10th… But when I read that back I feel churlish as I AM still able to look forward to these precious times, when too many of my friends and colleagues no longer can…
Seriously, I’m on the mend already, but just need to rest up. It won’t be too long before I’ll be back with you and doing what I love so much – working here!
If you missed my Antthony Designs show last Saturday I thought you may like to see this, because it made me laugh, and it’s nice to end the blog with a smile : )
Take care and if you have the time, it would be good to hear from you.
With my love as always,